#14.21 - Cleaning up

I spent most of the last hour cleaning up - sorting out laundry and folding socks... yes back to porridge. I still have to hoover the place and clean the toilets.

So there are a few things I HAVE to do - some post and definitely the continuing of the planning for the lessons which is ok cos I know what I'm doing. I feel so awful though for the children. It's so unfair. So unfair. But I just need to get on it. But for some reason all I want to do is just not to a lot. Even though there is so much.

It's so bad.

Well I just sat on the sofa after a day of organising and watched Dark and German mini series about time travel. It was mildly interesting. Kinda the German version of Stranger Things. With teenagers, not tweenagers, and incest and mentalism.

So no the WORST thing about the alt right it appears that shamanism and mysticism and mythology will now be used to beat people over the head with. I'm so fucking sick and tired of this. I really never thought we would end up here. There is now a complete meltdown on Twitter. I'm so glad I'm not on it. It is mental. I don't really care anymore. People are now literally talking at cross purposes with each other. It is like listening to crazy people arguing. No sense of history, no sense of the spiritual, no sense of politics or economics. No sense of anything at all. It is depressing beyond measure when context has not just evaporated but been swapped around for reality. I rewatched the Matrix. It was ok. It hasn't aged well. When something hasn't aged well, it basically means that the gimick was driving the story. 

I feel old but also not old. I feel... like people should grow up. 

I'm so glad that the boys are sensible and well grounded. So glad.

What is it with these alt right people anyway? Are they straight up racists? Or are they the dispossessed? Or what? I think far more insidious are the people who pretend to be not racist and then are just stone cold assholes. America, this day of reckoning was always coming. It was inevitable. I always asked how did they think this would end, it is clear that no one thought that any of it would end. They just thought that it would go on forever. How come people can't do action and consequence? It's mad.

So it is now 8 o clock. Amazingly. Despite having had a total down time yesterday, I slept till 5.30 which is late for me. I had the weirdest dream where it was my birthday and we celebrating and I was getting ready for a party - but I was kinda like in my 20s... and dressing up. It was so strange. 

Right. Today all the work and all the getting things together after all the thinking and planning. Time for just getting things done.

Ah yes, also the hoovering and cleaning of toilets which has to be done today.

And the fridge as well.

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America has always been in denial. It's model is now broken, gone. It has been for a long time. People who paid attention are not surprised. No one is surprised. People cannot have boots on their faces forever. The worst part of it is that the identity politics has obscured the real problem - which is the class war. Well, you know, if history wants to repeat itself. Never did I think - when Ma and Pa were born, it was the end of the Second World War. And then chastened, they rebuilt the world from the ashes, actually on the bones of the planet. Then they had us - of course I refused to take part in any of it - but people of my generation just didn't think about the limits... and finally we have what we have now. So, you know...

That's something right. But it is ok because people have been building support systems, although of course they are not allowed to implement them. It is as if the people who were in charge know that their systems are failing and are preventing people from organising alternatives. Well the joke's on them cos it will all be fine when it collapses. People who have been organising and setting up alternatives know how to do these things. We are gonna be ok. We are not helpless. We know what it takes. We are gonna be good.