#13.21 - America on Fire

Well I did kinda call it on America. I did say the end of this would be civil war. Not just because of Trump, but because of the pandemic. The mess which they are in is ENTIRELY of their own making. The annoying thing about America is that they kinda could have had it all. But no.... No a few assholes, once again ruining it for everyone.

Watched Dark Waters and Official Secrets - it was instructive the corruption of the state. The thing is I don't understand is how come people don't care? And how come they don't realise that this is a bad thing for them because creates a serious imbalance in power? It doesn't make any sense. 

It is coming though, I can feel it. The tsunami. As surely as night follows day. Unless there is a redressing of the problem - previously I was, yeah this is bad... nothing is being done... how will it end? Is no one going to do anything about it? 

So those who are responsible for it are now blaming each other for the mess. Mostly they are blaming Trump. But it is not really Trump who is responsible. The people in power have been responsible. The people who have made life hell for everyone are responsible. The bankers, the politicians who covered it up, the media - in that the people whom Trump identified are the EXACT people who the REAL left identified. The people whom I have followed and taken direction from all these years, agreed with. Suddenly they are very quiet. Well, not Michael Moore, he is appalled, but he is also not covering the other people who blame Trump in glory. He has had enough as well. It is just soooo depressing. 

The Left have all but evaporated. They have been reduced to a series of slogans and pious clucking. There is no other way I think - it is just going to get more and more unstable and then it is going to go into meltdown. And America HAS nuclear weapons. I wonder how the scientists who work for these people live with themselves?

So apparently, to the question how did these people who were in charge think it was going to end, I think the short answer is, they didn't think it was going to end. They thought that they were so clever and it would last forever. That the clearly wrong things which they have been doing forever were right and fully justified. I think this is what happens, I see it now. I never fully understood it - that if you can deny and need to deny the original atrocity of the genocide of the First Nations peoples, you can continue denying everything in order to survive. I see now why they support Israel, cos they are Israel. They are the success story of Israel - coming over, killing the people who lived there and occupying it successfully. That's why and that's how. 

And if you can deny this to yourself, the horrors of the colonisation, then you can deny and justify slavery, racism and finally, economic ecocide. After a while you end up running out of space and people to kill and finally the land just turns in on itself. And I also understand people thinking that it is some kind of religious deficit. Sadly it has been shown time and again that religion has been particularly useless in creating any parity because as soon as institution accrues power it start to attract assholes to it and these assholes then end up running the show and the rot then sets in. I don't know what the cure for that is. How do you prevent against the careerists, the opportunists, the broken and sociopathic? I think the only why to stop this is to prevent any institution from gaining too much power - HOWEVER, human beings seem incapable to function under a distributed leadership model. It has been tried repeatedly and it has failed because we are so rubbish at taking responsibility and the power then just becomes decentralised and informal which is almost worse than having a clear path of responsibility and power. It is just an intractable problem that goes round and round in circles. But that is the mess we are in. If we could start all over again, what would we do? A community of likeminded people living together, trying to approach the same goals. But I have been directly involved in this and I have seen where it has ended up. I am trying to do something good with Elements, so I'll just stick with that.

It is almost 7 am. So I should think about the day. I've been really impressed at how little it took to get me back to the weight I was before Christmas. Which is exactly ten days. Which just goes to show. Time to get started on the day. It has been amazing.

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So today... I have to do loads because I didn't do anything yesterday apart from school things. So it is a busy day. I was telling Ma how tired I was and she asked me why are you tired... it is a good question. Why AM I so tired? I have more or less has enough really of this mess which we find ourselves in. The fear, the stress, the children which are not getting what they need. It's mental.

It is just so unfair, so crazy. I'm taking this to a hard copy journal now.