Shiva's and Metta's Mother's Sutra

Yellow vented bulbul, yesterday's bird completed At the club It has been a busy day. Finally tracked down Auntie Jo and she said she didn't want to have anything to do with anything, so at least we have gotten an answer. And we know she's still alive. I understand that she experienced a life altering change over twenty years ago, but the asshole who was her husband was no different from, I would say, 85% of men. Cold, unpleasant and selfish. OK, maybe human beings, but definitely men. However, it is not a reason to just sink into a collapsed souffle heap and cut yourself off from family and friends - and children. And of course people are going to do hurtful things to you especially children who will want to remain in contact with their parent, no matter how useless and hurtful they have been - but sure, what can you do? You could possibly just grow up. Well, at least she's told me that we are no longer to count her in. It is what it is, but at l...

High Priestess: Start of a new cycle. Healing and insight. Initiation. Represents intuition, mystery, and spiritual knowledge. In tarot readings, she encourages you to trust your inner voice and explore the depths of your subconscious. Subject of the reading Three of Swords: Heartbreak, turmoil, sorrow - leading to growth Ten of Wands: Carrying a great burden, perhaps more than you should. Feeling overburdened and stressed due to taking on too many responsibilities. It suggests that while you may be nearing the end of a challenging period, the weight of your obligations can lead to burnout if not managed properly. Wheel of Fortune: Everything changes. Part of life's ups and downs. Embrace whatever is happening and look of opportunity. See where you can go/ grow Ace of Swords: Important decision to be made. Mental clarity, breakthrough. New ideas, cutting through confusion with insight. Three of pentacles: New beginnings, a wealth which is not just material. Foundational and strong....

Yellow vented bulbul - working on it Yu Sheng - belated It was lovely yesterday. I ran - no swim, we had lunch at HiDeLao. Jac came to get us at 1030 and we went to have steamboat. It was very delicious, but I did a little overeat. After that we came home and Ma and I slept. I got up at 3, which was too late to go for a swim cos I had to do loads of Admin to do with Pa and will and things like that. Then we had dinner at Jac's and got home around 8.30 pm which was a very long day for us. I had some concerning news from a friend about their health. Nothing is good in the world right now. Not to mention that Israel has released sewage in the water supply of Gaza and the war in the Persian Gulf is escalating. Iran is clearly waging a war which is going to take everyone with them and the US cannot deescalate. I don't know what all the fucking professionals in diplomatic circles - what exactly are they for? Jesus. Anyway - yesterday a series of extremely trig...

Going to fix windchime Ma in the park, watching the small French enclave that has developed here... Maids were having the day off so parents had to show up at the park. God knows when they went home... I believe drink was involved. Completed my Olive-backed sunbird Well, it was the weekend. It has only been a week since the funeral, two since Pa passed on. It will be exactly an hour to his passing. He has been visiting Ma in adventurous dreams. Involving competitions. They sound quite hectic. It's so lovely. When he visits he is in his 30s or 40s and Ma is young as well.  Project Mama's Dapur is going great. Or maybe it should be Dapur Cowdray. We made Kiam Chye Soup and Ox-tail Soup. Both bone based soups and therefore very strengthening. I have made a list of foods we can cook and the next on the list is Babi Assam. A true nonya dish. The dapur luar is almost cleaned and it is almost over the sorting of things. I thi...

Treasures from clearing out the cupboards in the kitchen Kasut manek! - Beaded shoes using faceted coloured glass. At least 100 years old Sushi - out for dinner for the first time Yesterday was a tough day. It is nearly two weeks since Pa's passing. Two weeks ago he started to stop taking any water. I stopped waking him up to drink. He was now sleeping so peacefully that waking him up was so terrible. Jac asked yesterday should we have taken him to hospital? A conversation we had a million times. And this is how the conversation went: Should we take him to hospital? What we do know? He has stage 4 stomach cancer - with no pain. Utterly painless. The doctors said that all treatment - from surgery to radiotherapy was pointless. Pa is 82 years old. He is now very weak. He is now refusing food. He is sleeping all the time. He would hate to be in hospital. He has told us a zillion times that it is pointless being ho...

The Swee Bo Pots anyone? All shiny and clean! Signature Gardens trolley Last night I wondered if I knew that Pa was leaving us - because I had tidied the hall, dusted everything, and then thinking it would be nice thing to collect all the things Pa loved which were scattered all over the living room, I put them on a table to display everything. This is where Pa new resides. His mortal remains.  Anyway, yesterday I continued cleaning the kitchen with the help of Yati. We took off all the pots from the granite table outside and washed them down. Most of the plastic was thrown away as it had broken up. Ma has such a collection of pots and pan and many other things besides. Today we will clean BENEATH - the cupboards in kitchen and we will then store the pots we won't use inside.  Today we are going to have a home day because Saturday is a super busy day in Singapore. So this is the plan. Mass           ...