Shiva's and Metta's Mother's Sutra

Ta me abalta leann Gaelige anois. Ta ag labhrionn scealta eile go hiomlan. an ceann so freisin an buachaill agus an cat. is abhainn liom an da cheann It has been busy the last two days. Bhi gnolacht tar eis na dha lae. Been cleaning and clearing. I managed to cut all the tall nettles and and dock in the back garden. So the front and back and are now sorted. Sadly, on the last few feet of the front yard, a massive frog jumped out. I stopped cutting immediately. It was heartbreaking taking down the beautiful moist rainforest which had grown there. Heartbreaking. I stopped instantly. I think in the future, I will do what I always meant to do - just cut a mosiac of grassland so the species can still stay hidden in the long grass. It almost killed me all that - I also did lots of laundry and cleaned the garage. I have a meeting with the lawyer today to see what needs to be done by way of the transfer of the house to my name. I'll do more gardening tod...

Well, it has hit me like a wall. I am exhausted. I am exhausted. I am now flying again, for the last time, back to Singapore - the my sixth and final transcontinental flight inside of 6 months... 6 months? Yep, six months. And two of those were a week apart. I have lost my father. I am settling my second son into university, teaching him to look after the house. I am accompanying my mother through a deep bereavement. I am without an income for the next ten months - at least. I have had to uproot my entire life... yes, therefore i am tired. There are upsides. I am fit. I am healthy. I can take time to take time. I am going to be with family and everyone is good. Safe. I am hoping that common sense will prevail and we will not go into an unnecessary war.  I dreamt of Pa last night. It was a super long dream. He was bringing us to eat chilli crab and I was well what will i eat then? Then we ended up in this place with houses and gardens and just it was very beautiful but also a bit we...

Every three months, I will end up taking a day off school - usually with some kind of illness. Cough or whatever. And it is usually to do with exhaustion. Doing too much. It was not easy to do nothing. Anyway. it will be back to busy today as I complete the cutting of the grass in the front and the clearing of the garage. Right I'm going to do that. I did write something about Mamdani but I'll just leave the entire blogging thing here. 

Met with Anthony yesterday. We talked for two hours and it felt like no time had passed by. We share our journeys. I think the last time I saw him was more than a year ago. He looked great, as usual. We trade stories about parents and deaths. We chatted about ex colleagues and medical issues. We reminisced and wondered what would happen to this world. Both safe in the knowledge that we had, indeed, tried our best. We talked about our children. Oisin was 6 months old when I joined the RSPB. Anthony told me that his daughter was almost 40. I was in disbelief. I knew these children as, well, children. While we talked, there was a fire and it turned out that it was a fire at the scrapyard of the harbour. It was nuts really. Apparently there was another fire there in May of this year. Ghin cleaned the toilet and started with the garage. I tried gardening, but it began raining. I am tired all the time. This year has been a tiring year. I have only run four times since...

  trees have hollows inside them. their live part is outside. there does not seem to be any rot around or inside the tree which would weaken it. the exterior is protected by the waterproof bark and the bit of the tree which is carried food and nutrients is the area of the trunk directly behind the bark. if the tree isn't rotting then it is not dangerous. it is clear that the person who is in charge of trees in singapore doesn't know anything about them because they have all been pruned so that they get more and more more unstable as the years go by. The tree height should have been capped by pruning the topmost branches and the branches and the trees should have been pruned so that they gave maximum coverage. But the person who decided how the trees are looked after has just told the contracters who aren't trained tree surgeons to just do whatever they want. as a result the trees have grown too high for cutting and become top heavy resulting in falling hazards. i mean can s...

I now have 2 grown up sons. I did more or less raise them on my own. As most mothers do. When I say on my own, I mean that when they came along, despite being highly educated and having jobs I loved, I had to make a choice: myself or my child. Really. I had to make a decision. And the litmus test for me always was, say, when my sons are now independent and decide to do things which are truly horrible, will I be able to look at myself in the mirror and say, actually, you know what, I did do my best. Given the information at the time and the resources I had, I did do my best. Of course I will love them till the end of time, no matter how horrible they are, but in the end, I do not want to look back and be filled with the 'I shouldas'. Does Lawrence Wong know the amount of literal SACRIFICE that takes? Does he? A sacrifice which if you do not have a husband nor significant other who is ...