Shiva's and Metta's Mother's Sutra

Holy Night 8 December 31 - January 1 - Leo The cross on the sword pommel: the sacrifice. Girded with the sword of the power of Christ, the tongue speaks the truth, without being able to wound. It is the night of re-setting. Mystery: The knight, the fighter with the lance of the will and the sword of knowledge. The dog as symbol of obedience, at his side. Behind him death and the devil! At a certain level of knowledge any false step leads to quicker ruin, and victory is won through fulfilling and being tirelessly true to Leo’s tasks. Eighth Contemplation: Kristina Kaine On the eighth Holy Night we stand on the precipice between two rounds of time. There has to be a crucifixion. All that has served our growth during the past year must now be crucified, it must die. Imagine the consequences if Jesus had not been crucified … . All our precious thoughts, feelings and actions that have brought us this far can be put to rest. As we step over the threshold into the New Year we can raise them...

Oisin and I attended the service yesterday. But before that, I organised and managed to get loads done once more. It has been gentle. I have set up the table here for drawing - temporary until I get the backroom sorted, which will hopefully be today - and then I'll start drawing there. It has been very gentle... the entire season.  I am grateful. I must organise after this too. We have spent not a lot since Christmas. The majority of the spending though was on the garden, which anyway, needed to be spent on.  The angel talk yesterday was about the epochs of which angels presided over what. human beings love to reverse engineer things. For me the thing I take away from the angelic hierarchies is that the world is divine. That we are all here for each other, that we will become the tenth hierarchy after we have helped each other. And that we must do. It is what compels us. I used to say to myself, how can I be happy when anyone else suffers because of something which...

It has to happen, I need to do the accounts - mine for a start.  have put this off for almost two days now and I have slotted it into the 6 to 8 slot. It usually only takes an hour. BUT I hate doing it when I haven't done it for ages, especially when I've just let it slide like I have over the past couple of months - well actually since November. So, yes, two months, well middle of November, a month and a bit. So, here's what I am going to do - a teeny weeny last bit of procrastination before I REALLY REALLY REALLY do it - I will enter the Personal Accounts appointment with myself weekly - it has to be weekly really. It is best that way. And when I have done that, I will do it. It never is as awful as I think it is really. Well, I DID it - accounts sorted. Good to know what I have in the bank. Delighted. =========== I am almost moved out of the living room now. I just need to sort the study properly before that happens completely and that can't happen unless...

Angel Weighing a Soul - Ridolfo di Arpo Guariento Holy Night 7 December 30-31 - Cancer The serpent on the sword pommel: wisdom. We should busy ourselves with uplifting readings. It is the night of the great command. The mystery of activity: who exercises command over our soul? Who is the master of our soul, the doer of our deeds? We have the freedom to strengthen the goodwill in ourselves. ================== Seventh Contemplation: by Kristina Kaine As we become more aware of our three soul forces, our feeling or sentience, our thoughts or intellect and our will or conscious awareness, we see many repetitive patterns. We realise that we are inclined to have certain feelings, think certain thoughts and behave in a certain way. Everyone who knows us can tell us about this. Profilers study it and can predict how we respond to particular situations. This is our personality and our character. These personal inclinations have developed lifetime after lifetime. The strength of our character an...

Very soon this will be relocated to the office -  possibly by today, certainly by Sunday Yesterday Oisin and I went to the club and just did swimming and chatting.  Before I get to that though.... here are some lessons from yesterday. I did say this to Oisin at the club... but the two things from yesterday which were of significance were: 1. I used to say I didn't have hangovers anymore, but it turns out that I may have been having one very long hangover. It turns out that the drinking, such as it was, had made me very tired, exhausted and the brain fog has been largely due to that. BECAUSE, yesterday was ONLY my fifth day off the sauce and I was unstoppable. I mean ADHD unstoppable.  I did the blog, I wrote my letter to Bart,  I took out and figured out the moonscope, although by the time I had done that, the moon had disappeared (it had been attached wrongly in the first place and I rectified it), I excavated the drawings for the zodiac and then designe...

Holy Night 6 December 29-30 - Gemini Now follow the three nights of the sword. Peter's night. Night of the consecration of the sword. Each of us must forge his or her own sword of discernment. Each of us must unite our spiritual will with the eternal, the immortal, and the perishable, and in this way we shall recognize the truth. Guardians of the Nativity by Brian Jekel Mystery: Bring together the Son of God with the Son of Man - Unity. ------------- Sixth Contemplation: by Kristina Kaine Of the three soul forces, the will is the most mysterious. In our lives we deal with two kinds of will; one which is connected to nature and the forces of dissolution and destruction, the other which is connected to spirit and the constructive forces of the earth. We find the earthly will in our digestive system and other bodily movements – we can’t be conscious of it nor interfere with it, it has a job to do. It is the spiritual will that we can wield like a sword. The sword is directed by our m...

The Run Well, here it goes...the first of two posts... Yesterday was busy. The planning began. I completed loads of things on the list by 9 am and then I began to get the boys ready for the run at Craigavon. I have never been to the Craigavon Lakes before. They appeared to be some sort of water body - uncertain if it is natural or manmade. I'd say natural. It was too large to be man made, Unless it was made by Victorians, then anything is possible. The boys and I ran, and then we got changed and headed to Munch for lunch. It was just wonderful. Lovely. Just spending loads of time laughing and recollecting. I had, as of yesterday, decided no longer to speak about Peter - good nor bad. That's all done. And so Peter faded from our conversation. We talked about all kinds of other silly things instead - I don't know what, I couldn't tell you, but we were so happy. I have no counted up my vouchers. I have £40 for M&S, £30 for Without Waste, £30 for TK Mexx a...

Art by the wonderful  @catrin_welzstein  Catrin Welz-Stein This year has been whirlwind. People kept asking me how do you manage to do it? Where do you find all that time? I think, actually I am rather lazy. It's interesting isn't it? I see myself as indolent and rather unproductive.  There is the school which I am fastened to - it is my Pole Star. It keeps me sane. The children keep me sane. Then there is Elements which I am happy with. And the New Moon Goddess Journey sessions. Apart from that I clean the house once a week, hoover once every two, if you're lucky and haphazardly crash around the rest of my life... meeting deadline cos I have to. BUT at least I don't own anyone anything. Whew. I have a house to live in which is mine and that is no to to be sneezed at. And it is a very nice house to. I am very satisfied with it. It is situated in a beautiful little town, on a beautiful coast, in a gorgeous country. On the Atlantic. I have incredible health - apart from t...

December 28-29 - Taurus Consciously purify the body of thought. Discipline thinking. Concentrating on the positive. Converting the black doves of thought into white doves, because our thinking is, until it is not consciously conducted with discipline, like a dovecote! Keep this dovecote closed against foreign, negative thoughts. Mystery: The purification of the temple by Jesus Christ. Rudolf Steiner’s indications for the Holy Nights given to Herbert Hahn Translation from German by Laura Zanutto 2015 adjusted by Mark Willan 2016 Art: Angel Standing in the Sun by Turner ================= Over the years I have begun to understand - again this theme - that it is so important to be positive. Not to be an idiot, but to be someone who brings the sun. I do try very hard. Again that contest between sympathy and antipathy. That dance. That is my challenge for the entire period of my life. I guess that is the entire challenge we must face too. All of us. So today's night is an easy one. Well ...

The solstice branch Truth be told I really needed to stop drinking. Not because I feel physically better, but because it did enable me to put up with things I would otherwise not put up with. There are no excuses. But now, now here I am... I just naturally stopped on the 26th - I know its not many days, but you know as they say in AA, one day at a time. I completed the blog update yesterday and did some writing for all the Holy Nights. I have to say I am not having lovely dreams these Holy Nights. Strange things wander around the corridors of my dreams. Like last night I dreamt that Oisin had been asked by this guy to drive a batter BMW go cart down a land and we ended up getting stuck. He started dismantling the entire thing... we were in some beach-lecture type place... it was very odd. The day before I had dreamt that there was a massive pile of diahorrea which I had to clean up. Honestly. Never seen a pile so large. Not the lovely dulcet dreams which I would want. Per...

I am beginning to understand Steiner's meditations for the Holy Nights. I don't know why I am so slow. It's ridiculous. It feels like everybody has understood everything before I have. I feel like such an idiot. These aha! moments just seem like everyone has gotten them just waaaay before me. But here's the planning for the rest of the holidays - I've written them down. It isn't just for the holidays, but it is help me get started. I have quit a few vouchers to spend as well! And I need to book the spa for the boys and myself. But I am quite hungry now after all this typing and meditation and I'll take a short break to then look at the next few days, ask friends to meet up and then do the rest of the year... and week, of course.  I have 11 days, including today. And I can start cleaning one room - my toilet today. And hoovering the house. Yep. I can. But I have loads to do now... and then plan to go to Wales in February at some stage. But that...

Holy Night 4 December 27-28 - Aries Consciously purify the astral body: antipathy and sympathy are converted into universal love. Passions and desires keep silent. The power of Christ penetrates with his light and his strength what is Luciferic in us. Mystery: The work on ourselves serves the best interests of the whole. The Archangel Uriel holds up a mirror in which we see ourselves as we are. Rudolf Steiner’s indications for the Holy Nights given to Herbert Hahn Art: Annunciation Mikhail Nesterov ======================== Working on my antipathy. I really must do this. I did inherit this very strongly from my own upbringing, it is true, so I MUST see where the antipathies lie, my irrational antipathies and work actively on them. I have started doing this, but I could do this more. I could do this better. I must. I must do this better. I must learn to control these poor habits. I have started, but I could do better. It is true. I can do this a lot better. I can allow Christ's light...

Holy Night 3 December 26-27 – Pisces Now follow the 3 nights of the white lily. The soul recognizes that it cannot stay above but must come down again because in it, it possesses too much earthly weight. The conscious mind begins to purify the earthly body and assumes that each food is as a viaticum (provision for a journey). I am the bread (words of Christ Jesus). We come from the bread, we live in the path of development of the bread and return to the bread. The Mystery: Never forget the accomplishment of the distant objectives of leaving the earthly realm. Rudolf Steiner’s indications for the Holy Nights given to Herbert Hahn Translation from German by Laura Zanutto 2015 adjusted by Mark Willan 2016 3. Heilige Nacht 26./27. Die drei Nächte der weissen Lilie. – Fische Die Seele erkennt, dass sie sich nicht oben zu halten vermag, dass sie wieder hinunter gezogen wird, weil noch soviel Erdenhaftes in ihr ist. Die Seele schickt sich bewusst an, den irdischen Körper zu reinigen, indem si...

Holy Night 2 December 25-26 – Aquarius Night of John. The Eagle of the soul circling high on its wings and looking back from a great height, observes its own life. And now the man recognizes the Laws of Karma. The Mystery: Choosing the narrow and difficult path or the path that is wide and easy. For those who are born of flesh it is hard to find the path of the spirit. Bhagavad Gita: A selfish life, or a life devoted to humanity? Rudolf Steiner’s indications for the Holy Nights given to Herbert Hahn Translation from German by Laura Zanutto 2015 adjusted by Mark Willan 2016 2. Heilige Nacht 25.-26. Dezember – Wassermann Nacht des Johannes. Der Adler der Seele kreist hoch auf seinen Schwingen, schaut zurück aus grosser Höhe und betrachtet sein eigenes Leben. Und jetzt erkennt der Mensch die Gesetze des Karma. Das Mysterium: Den schmalen und schwierigen Pfad oder den breiten und einfachen Weg wählen. Für den, der aus dem Fleische geboren ist, ist es schwer den Pfad des Geistes zu finden. ...

THE HOLY NIGHTS For one whose eyes of spirit are opened the Thirteen Days and Thirteen Nights between the 24th of December and the 6th of January are a time of deep spiritual experience. Parallel with the experience of the plant-seed in the depths of the natural earth, there is a spiritual experience in the earth's spirit-depths — verily a parallel experience. And the seer for whom this experience is possible either as the result of training or through inherited clairvoyant faculties, can feel himself penetrating into these spiritual depths. During this period of the Thirteen Days and Nights, the seer can behold what must come upon man because he has passed through incarnations which have been under the influence of the forces of Lucifer since the beginning of earthly evolution. The sufferings in Kamaloca that man must endure in the spiritual world because Lucifer has been at his side since he began to incarnate on the earth — the dearest vision of all this is presented in the migh...