#166.21 - Beautiful days of planning

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Things are changing again. So much is moving and I don't know which way I'm supposed to move with it. But there you have it - there is only ever change and I'm going to have to get used to it. I think that's the big takeaway really for the past two years. Everything changes.

What has not really changed for me is the way in which I think about Covid. Nothing about it makes sense and I have learned to trust this intuition in me. Whenever I have enduring questions that aren't answered then it smells fishy and so I'm less likely to go along with whatever else everyone else goes along with. I recently met someone whom I thought, actually I think we are just gonna have to differ on this. But this idea that now you have to be vaccinated to protect everyone else. This is pure magical thinking. Vaccination does not protect everyone else. It is supposed to confer immunity on the person who gets the vaccine. You get vaccinated for example if you are going into a place which has a disease you don't want to get. You don't expect the rest of the population to be vaccinated. You get the immunity or you hope you do at least. Never in the history of vaccinations has it ever been said that you have to get vaccinated to protect other people. No one has explained this to me.

This is pure magical thinking. 

Gary sits here looking at me. I love him so much. Beautiful boy. 

So many things to think about now. I'm going to have to plan this out this evening. That's what i'll do in bed.

I cleaned the house yesterday and today was just a take it easy afternoon. 

Tomorrow I'm getting up early to sort things out. Or I say I am. But Im thinking clearly again now that Mercury has passed. Whew! There is an incredible sunset happening out there tonight. 

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