#91
Yesterday's Nice Thing: First day of the holidays
Just got a speeding tickets... feck. I was trying to meet Kevin and over 8 km/hr on the Springfield Road. In the end we just met in the Costa in Holywood anyway.
Me being me detests feeling as if I am doing nothing about the state of the world. And the stae of the world is perilous. Perhaps I have actually completely and utterly underestimated the stupidity of politicians completely. Also the ability to do the right thing which is in pitifully short supply.
Once I was perhaps part of a class which imagined it was part of the debate. Everyone is supposed to be right? But I am now as baffled and disgusted and astonished as any bystander could possibly be.
There has been no government in Northern Ireland now, and apparently the UK, for almost three years. This is because politicians can't come together to work things out. On the one hand we have reality and then we have whatever they think they are doing. Also, there is the small matter of runaway consumerism.
This is where things stand for me right now.
I have had enough of travelling. It is mostly pointless. I mean I love it, but it just isn't something I want to do any more. If I travel, I usually travel for a purpose. Meet friends. Go to meetings. I get out to really explore places when I go for these things, but yeah, travelling for 'fun' - that has never really made sense to me.
I am at a crossroads in my life again, once again - the seven year period is striking hard. It has come in the form, most especially of the hormonal storm which took place over the last two months. If I look back at it it lasted for only two weeks. For two weeks I thought I was going to lose my mind.
I can see now I was not losing my mind. There are just some realities which are based on the body which we can't account for.
I desperately need to go away and think about things carefully. Again. To get my bearings once more.
Finally, I must really REALLY sort out my health. If I don't do it this year... well... I really must do it. I am mostly healthy, but I need to think about how I really make sure I am doing this properly. I know what I should NOT do though. Overexercise. I need to do SOMETHING everyday, especially stretching. It feels like a beginning today, I don't know why. We are entering Holy Week and that might have something to do with it.
But there is one more thing. Over the next couple of years there is going to be a reckoning. For the entire planet. Disaster capitalism will finally consume its own tail and we are all going to be caught up in it. Maybe Ireland, less so - but in general, there is a day of reckoning coming if something isn't done.
It is critical to construct a narrative while we are at it. REALLY important. What is our story going to be and how are we going to hang it? How will we implement it? How will we sit with it? In the midst of all that ... for me, I have read just about everything I need on the things I care about. What is becoming increasingly clear to me is the importance of building community. And getting out into nature - but being in nature in a respectful way.
In many ways the current interaction people have with nature is so superficial that it is damaging. There is no real understanding of it. It is purely consumerist. Or mostly consumerist. It is really painful to watch now. Also this cheapening of travel. It would appear that despite traveling more than ever, most people who do this have not been able to learn from travel. In fact the ones who travel the most are the most idiotic. That is what I have been forced to understand from the way people talk about traveling. It has become yet another stick to beat your friends with. Just like having kids.
There is also this general attitude to life that it should be pain free and mostly people should spend all their lives being children. One should not have any hardship, to sacrifice something is a sign of personal failure. So this phrase, 'you can have it all', which seemed ludicrous and facile when it was conceived in the 70s, is now something the vast majority of people believe that they should have.
In the First World. I don't know what they mean by having it all, but it usually involves someone ELSE suffering on their behalf.
This also translates to having children. People are so inept at having children that the normal sacrifices which as parents we must make when having children are seen as unacceptable. As a result, there are no more adults in the home.
But there seems to be no more adults in general.
There is a really beautiful sunset rising. I am going for my run. And then I am going to make myself a pot of coffee and do some planning. Yesterday I was lying in bed and it suddenly struck me that Oisin would be an adult in two months time. It was really shocked. He could now do ANYTHING he wanted and I'd be powerless to stop him. Well, not powerless.... but an adult. That is something else....
Just got a speeding tickets... feck. I was trying to meet Kevin and over 8 km/hr on the Springfield Road. In the end we just met in the Costa in Holywood anyway.
Me being me detests feeling as if I am doing nothing about the state of the world. And the stae of the world is perilous. Perhaps I have actually completely and utterly underestimated the stupidity of politicians completely. Also the ability to do the right thing which is in pitifully short supply.
Once I was perhaps part of a class which imagined it was part of the debate. Everyone is supposed to be right? But I am now as baffled and disgusted and astonished as any bystander could possibly be.
There has been no government in Northern Ireland now, and apparently the UK, for almost three years. This is because politicians can't come together to work things out. On the one hand we have reality and then we have whatever they think they are doing. Also, there is the small matter of runaway consumerism.
This is where things stand for me right now.
I have had enough of travelling. It is mostly pointless. I mean I love it, but it just isn't something I want to do any more. If I travel, I usually travel for a purpose. Meet friends. Go to meetings. I get out to really explore places when I go for these things, but yeah, travelling for 'fun' - that has never really made sense to me.
I am at a crossroads in my life again, once again - the seven year period is striking hard. It has come in the form, most especially of the hormonal storm which took place over the last two months. If I look back at it it lasted for only two weeks. For two weeks I thought I was going to lose my mind.
I can see now I was not losing my mind. There are just some realities which are based on the body which we can't account for.
I desperately need to go away and think about things carefully. Again. To get my bearings once more.
Finally, I must really REALLY sort out my health. If I don't do it this year... well... I really must do it. I am mostly healthy, but I need to think about how I really make sure I am doing this properly. I know what I should NOT do though. Overexercise. I need to do SOMETHING everyday, especially stretching. It feels like a beginning today, I don't know why. We are entering Holy Week and that might have something to do with it.
But there is one more thing. Over the next couple of years there is going to be a reckoning. For the entire planet. Disaster capitalism will finally consume its own tail and we are all going to be caught up in it. Maybe Ireland, less so - but in general, there is a day of reckoning coming if something isn't done.
It is critical to construct a narrative while we are at it. REALLY important. What is our story going to be and how are we going to hang it? How will we implement it? How will we sit with it? In the midst of all that ... for me, I have read just about everything I need on the things I care about. What is becoming increasingly clear to me is the importance of building community. And getting out into nature - but being in nature in a respectful way.
In many ways the current interaction people have with nature is so superficial that it is damaging. There is no real understanding of it. It is purely consumerist. Or mostly consumerist. It is really painful to watch now. Also this cheapening of travel. It would appear that despite traveling more than ever, most people who do this have not been able to learn from travel. In fact the ones who travel the most are the most idiotic. That is what I have been forced to understand from the way people talk about traveling. It has become yet another stick to beat your friends with. Just like having kids.
There is also this general attitude to life that it should be pain free and mostly people should spend all their lives being children. One should not have any hardship, to sacrifice something is a sign of personal failure. So this phrase, 'you can have it all', which seemed ludicrous and facile when it was conceived in the 70s, is now something the vast majority of people believe that they should have.
In the First World. I don't know what they mean by having it all, but it usually involves someone ELSE suffering on their behalf.
This also translates to having children. People are so inept at having children that the normal sacrifices which as parents we must make when having children are seen as unacceptable. As a result, there are no more adults in the home.
But there seems to be no more adults in general.
There is a really beautiful sunset rising. I am going for my run. And then I am going to make myself a pot of coffee and do some planning. Yesterday I was lying in bed and it suddenly struck me that Oisin would be an adult in two months time. It was really shocked. He could now do ANYTHING he wanted and I'd be powerless to stop him. Well, not powerless.... but an adult. That is something else....
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