#115
School begins again - I cannot believe this is my seventh year in school. Yesterday I went for a walk in Belvoir Park Forest. It was so beautiful. Then I came home and did some digging.
I made roast chicken for lunch with mash and veg. It was simple and good.
It is going to be a horrible day - ran by the looks of it. The sky dark and threatening.
Right - I need to stop dreaming.
I have been on FB this past 45 minutes.
Walking in Belvoir Park and going to the North Coast reminded me about why I needed to get out into nature. It has taken me an age to reconnect with it once again and I have been on this mad journey as I did it.
Yesterday I also saw Jonathan and his wee baby and Gabriel and I was talking about the possibilities of what to do next. You can't follow the money, I said. You need to follow what you think is right - your heart and right now, my heart says there is a need to find a way back to nature in a spiritual way. To have all the science, to name all the beasts and and plants and know them by the names we have given them, but to also, at the same time reestablish this heart connection with them which also enables us to feel a spiritual awe.
It is what will help as mend a broken world. And in so doing help us mend ourselves.
We are healing a breach which has taken place over the entire span of the generations since... well since the Second World War almost certainly - we have found that it is empty. Everything which we have measured, cut down, used to furnish the fever of the capitalist dream is now breaking down.
It is not only unsustainable but also coarsening. I have taken all I can take for the time being from the Steiner and will absolutely continue to do what I do, but really - it is time to take the life of the activist into the world again.
We cannot continue like this - and I now need to think about what I am going to do with this impulse. An impulse which is not only about making a living but also bringing this light into these dark times.
Making the beautiful possible.
So now begins the questioning, the putting together of what we have and what we can create given the materials which we have. It is a bit frightening, of course it is, but there we have it.
I made roast chicken for lunch with mash and veg. It was simple and good.
It is going to be a horrible day - ran by the looks of it. The sky dark and threatening.
Right - I need to stop dreaming.
I have been on FB this past 45 minutes.
Walking in Belvoir Park and going to the North Coast reminded me about why I needed to get out into nature. It has taken me an age to reconnect with it once again and I have been on this mad journey as I did it.
Yesterday I also saw Jonathan and his wee baby and Gabriel and I was talking about the possibilities of what to do next. You can't follow the money, I said. You need to follow what you think is right - your heart and right now, my heart says there is a need to find a way back to nature in a spiritual way. To have all the science, to name all the beasts and and plants and know them by the names we have given them, but to also, at the same time reestablish this heart connection with them which also enables us to feel a spiritual awe.
It is what will help as mend a broken world. And in so doing help us mend ourselves.
We are healing a breach which has taken place over the entire span of the generations since... well since the Second World War almost certainly - we have found that it is empty. Everything which we have measured, cut down, used to furnish the fever of the capitalist dream is now breaking down.
It is not only unsustainable but also coarsening. I have taken all I can take for the time being from the Steiner and will absolutely continue to do what I do, but really - it is time to take the life of the activist into the world again.
We cannot continue like this - and I now need to think about what I am going to do with this impulse. An impulse which is not only about making a living but also bringing this light into these dark times.
Making the beautiful possible.
So now begins the questioning, the putting together of what we have and what we can create given the materials which we have. It is a bit frightening, of course it is, but there we have it.
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