#116
Being back in school was good. When you are with the kids it is all good.
Yesterday I lay in bed and we tired, again. It is always the way though. always the way - back to school exhaustion.
There are only nine more weeks though to get us through it all.
The final push.
I can't drink anymore. Alcohol I mean. I had a small amount over the weekend and it was not good. I just can't. It isn't nice anymore. I feel like it is completely pointless.
I was talking to friends about what I am trying to do with my life. I have been thinking about the main impulse which drives me and which I want to bring into this world. Which I think is meaningful. I suppose that has always been the way I have worked and operated.
What that impulse is has changed over time. The truth is that I want to write. But I have not really tended to this. Partly because I have been busy doing other things, partly because I have do discipline.
So WRITE would be one.
Over the course of this year, I have come to the conclusion that Spirituality and Nature - or action - are needed to not 'heal the world', but that is my wish. To bring this spiritual and deep appreciation of the world around us in place. What is the spiritual for me?
It began with the inquiry around, for want of a better word, the 'veil'. The veil which all religions speak about. This veil that separates the holy of holies from the secular. Steiner said that this was a part of human evolution. That people needed to move away from this oneness with the spirit and wake up almost. This has now gone far enough and we now need to return to this, but not in a New Agey hippy dippy kinda way. No. We need to do this by really knowing and loving the world - natural phenomena. By doing this we will fill a longing in our souls I believe.
People want this but we do not know how to do this because the spiritual and the scientific have been so divorced for such a long time that it looks like completely utterly different universes. Science regards the spirit with disdain and scorn. The spirit is powerless beside science. We have lost conviction in it and the result is mayhem. Because what is spirit? It is the face of God - found in everything and gazing into the face with awareness brings LOVE.
Healing takes place naturally when the vacuum is filled.
We cannot heal anything with just the head or the heart. It has to be a balance with experience - the Will.
There is also nothing sanctimonious about the working with spirit. When working with the spirit we are working with an impulse for authenticity to ourselves. The world and us resonates with each other.
My critique of conservation organisations and any education regarding science has been this very one sided engagement with nature. It is seen in the equipment, the specialist knowledge, the constant use of the word 'expert'. No one is an 'expert' someone just know more about something else - and often the so called experts are involved in the destruction of the thing which they purport to save. So, nope.
But just a shamanic consciousness - that is often too much for people. There needs to be a space in between where we build up when we know and then move to how we feel. A course which takes the entire ambit of myth and culture and science and in the process we will ourselves with the possibility and inspiration... to what end? For pleasure, for healing, for... what?
Currently the world does not pay or remunerate this consciousness. But we still have to make a living. We still must survive. There is the breach. What are the skills for survival?
What are our skills for survival?
Of thriving.
The only thing I can think of now is Forest Schools. Being with nature in such a way that you are healed by it. But right now FSchools are intent on delivering the NI curriculum which is this mutilated version of nature. This uptight arrogant divorced nature, not that nature is around us and part of us all the time.
Rewilding? I was just looking at that. It is very interesting.
Yesterday I lay in bed and we tired, again. It is always the way though. always the way - back to school exhaustion.
There are only nine more weeks though to get us through it all.
The final push.
I can't drink anymore. Alcohol I mean. I had a small amount over the weekend and it was not good. I just can't. It isn't nice anymore. I feel like it is completely pointless.
I was talking to friends about what I am trying to do with my life. I have been thinking about the main impulse which drives me and which I want to bring into this world. Which I think is meaningful. I suppose that has always been the way I have worked and operated.
What that impulse is has changed over time. The truth is that I want to write. But I have not really tended to this. Partly because I have been busy doing other things, partly because I have do discipline.
So WRITE would be one.
Over the course of this year, I have come to the conclusion that Spirituality and Nature - or action - are needed to not 'heal the world', but that is my wish. To bring this spiritual and deep appreciation of the world around us in place. What is the spiritual for me?
It began with the inquiry around, for want of a better word, the 'veil'. The veil which all religions speak about. This veil that separates the holy of holies from the secular. Steiner said that this was a part of human evolution. That people needed to move away from this oneness with the spirit and wake up almost. This has now gone far enough and we now need to return to this, but not in a New Agey hippy dippy kinda way. No. We need to do this by really knowing and loving the world - natural phenomena. By doing this we will fill a longing in our souls I believe.
People want this but we do not know how to do this because the spiritual and the scientific have been so divorced for such a long time that it looks like completely utterly different universes. Science regards the spirit with disdain and scorn. The spirit is powerless beside science. We have lost conviction in it and the result is mayhem. Because what is spirit? It is the face of God - found in everything and gazing into the face with awareness brings LOVE.
Healing takes place naturally when the vacuum is filled.
We cannot heal anything with just the head or the heart. It has to be a balance with experience - the Will.
There is also nothing sanctimonious about the working with spirit. When working with the spirit we are working with an impulse for authenticity to ourselves. The world and us resonates with each other.
My critique of conservation organisations and any education regarding science has been this very one sided engagement with nature. It is seen in the equipment, the specialist knowledge, the constant use of the word 'expert'. No one is an 'expert' someone just know more about something else - and often the so called experts are involved in the destruction of the thing which they purport to save. So, nope.
But just a shamanic consciousness - that is often too much for people. There needs to be a space in between where we build up when we know and then move to how we feel. A course which takes the entire ambit of myth and culture and science and in the process we will ourselves with the possibility and inspiration... to what end? For pleasure, for healing, for... what?
Currently the world does not pay or remunerate this consciousness. But we still have to make a living. We still must survive. There is the breach. What are the skills for survival?
What are our skills for survival?
Of thriving.
The only thing I can think of now is Forest Schools. Being with nature in such a way that you are healed by it. But right now FSchools are intent on delivering the NI curriculum which is this mutilated version of nature. This uptight arrogant divorced nature, not that nature is around us and part of us all the time.
Rewilding? I was just looking at that. It is very interesting.
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