#81

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Yesterday I went to Sarah's house for the FIRST TIME. She claims I may have been there before, but I do not remember. Anyhow, there was a lot of laughing and chatting. It has been so long since I've done that. It was really REALLY nice.

Then I went back to Ma's cleaned it up and had a hot shower and sent to bed. It has also been ages since i have been at ma's for any length of time. Possibly the last time I was there was Chinese New Year.

I am feeling SO SO SO much better.

I really emerged properly yesterday. Now, once again everything seems possible, I am back to the Stephanie I know.

This Stephanie is the Stephanie I want to always be - the one that changes and takes the rolls and punches of life, that says yes to things all of the time, which knows the challenge and rises to it. It has been hell on earth the past two months, but that is over now.

I am writing again and doing stuff, being able to stand in time and embrace it.

Put one thing in front of the other. These things matter...

Right, so today, after blogging I am going to clean the house for a couple of hours and then I'll get Ghin and we are gonna hang out with Kelly in Holywood. It is going to be a brilliant day. So much is happening around the school. And then, there is stuff to do at home...

Winter sucks, in particular March sucks. I have decided March is now my least favourite month, not February. March is the ninth month of a pregnancy.

I was reading The Flaming Door yesterday and a few sentences at the end really stood out.

the gist is... I have been trying to look for the quote but can't find it but essentially, from the moment we are birthed here on Earth we are in a brotherhood, or sisterhood. We are companions to each other. Birth is the Seal of Destiny. This idea of camaraderie, that we are all in this together is such a beautiful one.

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