#89
This year hasn't turned out at all as I had thought it would be. Being knocked for six sideways has been tough - and Gabriel's illness has had a negative effect on the school - we have all coped over the year but it has been impossible to feel stronger about anything at all.
But I am not going to talk about school.
I am going to talk about what I'm planning to do during the holidays.
Well, I usually spend the first three days in recovery. So, yeah recovery. I am just gonna relax and not have to use any of my will. I will simply TAKE IT EASY. Apart from running - I am going to start my running. And play the piano. And write. And garden. Those things, yes.
Thereafter... cleaning. I will clean for two days.
And that will take me to Wednesday. I will then probably go somewhere by myself.
Just for a night or so. Alone.
It is only 7 am.
Last night I was too tired to do anything - even sleep - so I went for a walk with Emma. My Irish sister. We talked about everything. Well not everything because we didn't want to talk about things which were bugging us. And we walked towards Belfast from Holywood and made it all the way past the Belfast Harbour reserve. I had no idea you could do this... but of course you could - walk all the way along the loughshore now that they had lifted the barriers at the Harbour estate.
As soon as the sun warms the garden I am going to do gardening - clearing and cleaning.
It was ridiculously gorgeous and beautiful. Such a still and hallowed night - the lights of Belfast blinking in the near distance and us here, walking along the shoreline which was the middle distance out. I could hear the curlew and terns.
I began the day thinking, does anything matter? And then realising that everything does. Every matters.
But I am not going to talk about school.
I am going to talk about what I'm planning to do during the holidays.
Well, I usually spend the first three days in recovery. So, yeah recovery. I am just gonna relax and not have to use any of my will. I will simply TAKE IT EASY. Apart from running - I am going to start my running. And play the piano. And write. And garden. Those things, yes.
Thereafter... cleaning. I will clean for two days.
And that will take me to Wednesday. I will then probably go somewhere by myself.
Just for a night or so. Alone.
It is only 7 am.
Last night I was too tired to do anything - even sleep - so I went for a walk with Emma. My Irish sister. We talked about everything. Well not everything because we didn't want to talk about things which were bugging us. And we walked towards Belfast from Holywood and made it all the way past the Belfast Harbour reserve. I had no idea you could do this... but of course you could - walk all the way along the loughshore now that they had lifted the barriers at the Harbour estate.
As soon as the sun warms the garden I am going to do gardening - clearing and cleaning.
It was ridiculously gorgeous and beautiful. Such a still and hallowed night - the lights of Belfast blinking in the near distance and us here, walking along the shoreline which was the middle distance out. I could hear the curlew and terns.
I began the day thinking, does anything matter? And then realising that everything does. Every matters.
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