#23
Yesterday's Nice Thing: It snowed!
It was tough waking up today - I went to bed very very tired and really, it was so cold that it was hard to get up and out of bed when the warmth of the bed was so alluring. I wrote, ran, did the laundry, cooked and did class prep. But I was so tired yesterday for some reason. It is hard really functioning at this level all the time - but hey, I am - and there are the weekends. I'm supposed to try and go dancing this weekend. We'll see.
I'm not complaining now - I'm just glad I'm here. Things feel a bit flat again. Who can account for the human being's emotions? Although I have noticed that I'm a lot better since I began running again. And drawing. I didn't manage to play my piano yesterday, but that's ok. I'll do it today, alongside the book binding.
Also yesterday's nice thing, Ghin got 87% for his German and Oisin got 46/48 for his pop quiz. He also said it was so nice because he had studied the night before and he was able to answer all the questions which the tutor had asked about Speakers and Whips. I'm really enjoying all my classes, he said. Studying the night before really makes a difference. The other day he came over and showed me his notes and asked me which ones looked nicer - highlighted or underlined. Maybe Oisin will become an academic. I'd never have pegged it, but hey, a woodworking, drawing, parkour and music making academic. Well, it can't get better than that really. And he now listens to jazz. He recently said to me, aren't human beings wonderful, isn't the world wonderful, that it can have something like jazz?
Oh my son. That is amazing, thank you.
The world is indeed wonderful.
Ghin is also incredible, he showed me his Main Lesson book the other day and it was so beautiful. My sons, they are such stars in my firmament.
Well, i've have just looked outside and it is an ice rink - so am I gonna run today or not, that is the question. Or is that just an excuse? I am gonna run. And see how far I get.
Five more minutes on this - well, I do notice the quality of my thinking is very different during term time. It is much more practical, which is why I suppose I need to make sure that I do lots of artistic activity.
I know I am a cosmic child for two reasons - well, child is a strong word to use - but it is because I have a longing to return to the cosmos which makes me a bit sad, as if I remember being kicked out of the heavens, and the second reason is that paradoxically, I love wonder in life. If I do not feel wonder I feel a bit pointless. I think that this ripe age I should dispense with the need to feel wonder, right? I know many many people who are earthly types and they get on with things, but I am always slightly tethered to another place.
The other thing I have to say is that teaching has really opened my eyes to how people are - I don't think you really know people until you do a profession that really brings you in contact with them - teaching, police, doctors and nurses, social workers.... something which utterly forces you to engage with the very fabric of human nature. It is something which I don't think I have fully grasped.
OK, I need to go for my run and then start getting ready for school.
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| The robin I did yesterday - it will be a present for a friend When I draw it is always magical, I never feel like its me drawing |
It was tough waking up today - I went to bed very very tired and really, it was so cold that it was hard to get up and out of bed when the warmth of the bed was so alluring. I wrote, ran, did the laundry, cooked and did class prep. But I was so tired yesterday for some reason. It is hard really functioning at this level all the time - but hey, I am - and there are the weekends. I'm supposed to try and go dancing this weekend. We'll see.
I'm not complaining now - I'm just glad I'm here. Things feel a bit flat again. Who can account for the human being's emotions? Although I have noticed that I'm a lot better since I began running again. And drawing. I didn't manage to play my piano yesterday, but that's ok. I'll do it today, alongside the book binding.
Also yesterday's nice thing, Ghin got 87% for his German and Oisin got 46/48 for his pop quiz. He also said it was so nice because he had studied the night before and he was able to answer all the questions which the tutor had asked about Speakers and Whips. I'm really enjoying all my classes, he said. Studying the night before really makes a difference. The other day he came over and showed me his notes and asked me which ones looked nicer - highlighted or underlined. Maybe Oisin will become an academic. I'd never have pegged it, but hey, a woodworking, drawing, parkour and music making academic. Well, it can't get better than that really. And he now listens to jazz. He recently said to me, aren't human beings wonderful, isn't the world wonderful, that it can have something like jazz?
Oh my son. That is amazing, thank you.
The world is indeed wonderful.
Ghin is also incredible, he showed me his Main Lesson book the other day and it was so beautiful. My sons, they are such stars in my firmament.
Well, i've have just looked outside and it is an ice rink - so am I gonna run today or not, that is the question. Or is that just an excuse? I am gonna run. And see how far I get.
Five more minutes on this - well, I do notice the quality of my thinking is very different during term time. It is much more practical, which is why I suppose I need to make sure that I do lots of artistic activity.
I know I am a cosmic child for two reasons - well, child is a strong word to use - but it is because I have a longing to return to the cosmos which makes me a bit sad, as if I remember being kicked out of the heavens, and the second reason is that paradoxically, I love wonder in life. If I do not feel wonder I feel a bit pointless. I think that this ripe age I should dispense with the need to feel wonder, right? I know many many people who are earthly types and they get on with things, but I am always slightly tethered to another place.
The other thing I have to say is that teaching has really opened my eyes to how people are - I don't think you really know people until you do a profession that really brings you in contact with them - teaching, police, doctors and nurses, social workers.... something which utterly forces you to engage with the very fabric of human nature. It is something which I don't think I have fully grasped.
OK, I need to go for my run and then start getting ready for school.
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