#11
Well, it is almost the end of the second week of the year. It was super busy in school. After that I did some car things, then I went to visit a friend, calling in to make sure things were ok and to vent, came home and was yelled at, of course... it was interesting, or has been interesting this yelling, because I was able to stay very calm and not react. A page I took out of my sister's book actually.
Well after I made dinner, I hung out with Ghin to watch three episodes of The Good Place, because I mostly couldn't move anymore, and then I went to bed at 7.45. I conked out straight away. I woke twice, 11.50 and 2 pm. For a short while, I looked at the clock, was super happy and then went back to bed.
Because I am still recovering, I am going to take it easy. The schedule will not kick in until next week. To be honest next week is going to be awesome. I will have the run of the house and I will be able to do all the cleaning, etc in it. I hope to, by the end of next week, by Sunday, have deep cleaned most rooms in the house and then the redecoration can begin. I already love the little nook like area we have made of the dining room... the conservatory needs to be made better use of.
Last night - I know now that the weird heart thing which I have been going through is deeply connected to my menopause and the transformation of the etheric heart. It happened a few times last night. It was the reason I woke. Instead of trying to contain it, I just breathed into it and enjoyed it. This is what metamorphosis feels like. This is what happens to a caterpillar in a chrysalis. This is what happens to us when we are turning into magical emotional soup. There is nothing wrong with us, we are being led to fulfill our destinies, this is the next step.
And it is a blessing really. The menopause, to undergo it, is the next powerful, magical step in the journey of womanhood. We have lived this long and now we are entering this privileged tribe of people who have lived beyond this age. In the history of our planet, living beyond 50 is a rare occurrence - it is only in this century that we think that longevity is a right. It is like we are on autopilot.
I know I am getting better. I am desperate to go for a run... but must not. Tomorrow I will go for a short walk. I'm having coffee with a friend later on today, after school, before that - more car things.
The poetry of the everyday. Doing birth with the class makes me in awe of the magical nature of the physical. This body is so beautifully fashioned. I want to live a gentle life. So in addition to: Creative. Fierce. Whimsical. Graceful. I will add Tender and Gentle to the list. And really live that.
Well after I made dinner, I hung out with Ghin to watch three episodes of The Good Place, because I mostly couldn't move anymore, and then I went to bed at 7.45. I conked out straight away. I woke twice, 11.50 and 2 pm. For a short while, I looked at the clock, was super happy and then went back to bed.
Because I am still recovering, I am going to take it easy. The schedule will not kick in until next week. To be honest next week is going to be awesome. I will have the run of the house and I will be able to do all the cleaning, etc in it. I hope to, by the end of next week, by Sunday, have deep cleaned most rooms in the house and then the redecoration can begin. I already love the little nook like area we have made of the dining room... the conservatory needs to be made better use of.
Last night - I know now that the weird heart thing which I have been going through is deeply connected to my menopause and the transformation of the etheric heart. It happened a few times last night. It was the reason I woke. Instead of trying to contain it, I just breathed into it and enjoyed it. This is what metamorphosis feels like. This is what happens to a caterpillar in a chrysalis. This is what happens to us when we are turning into magical emotional soup. There is nothing wrong with us, we are being led to fulfill our destinies, this is the next step.
And it is a blessing really. The menopause, to undergo it, is the next powerful, magical step in the journey of womanhood. We have lived this long and now we are entering this privileged tribe of people who have lived beyond this age. In the history of our planet, living beyond 50 is a rare occurrence - it is only in this century that we think that longevity is a right. It is like we are on autopilot.
I know I am getting better. I am desperate to go for a run... but must not. Tomorrow I will go for a short walk. I'm having coffee with a friend later on today, after school, before that - more car things.
The poetry of the everyday. Doing birth with the class makes me in awe of the magical nature of the physical. This body is so beautifully fashioned. I want to live a gentle life. So in addition to: Creative. Fierce. Whimsical. Graceful. I will add Tender and Gentle to the list. And really live that.
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