#114.21 - Certification!!!

Well it has been a good day. I completed my ADHD, Autism and Asperger's course and I did some English. Cleaned the house. Ran. Watched some X-files and it was good. Oh yes did the laundry. All good. A bit hungry, but it's ok. I had fried rice and seaweed goop. 

The ADHD course was illuminating. So many questions answered and so many questions raised. It is pretty primitive the treatment of ADHD I have to say. I also think there is a problem with overdiagnosis - as in no attempt is made to change the expectations or environment before the child is said to have the condition. Autism also has a really weirdly broad spectrum. You have children who are seriously handicapped by their condition and then you have children who clearly have issues around socialisation and habits, but are able to get on with life in general.

In the future, my recourse to action is going to be for children who are cruel to other children is zero tolerance. I have taught for long enough to know what is usual and unusual behaviour. Where unusual behaviour manifests itself it will be insta meetings. Apart from that I will know better how to manage a child who may be struggling with their 12 senses. I think that Steiner's 12 senses model is the one which makes the most sense. Top up the 12 senses as best we can. It is good for everyone. Give children that ability to have that majestic experience of life. Education is about enriching ourselves, about loving each other, our planet. It is about letting the person develop into a human being. Allowing children to breathe.

I look at Oisín and Ghin and I know we made the right call. It wasn't really a risk, but it also still was. We opted for truth instead of terror. Life instead of approval.

So far it seems to have paid off. 

Right, time for the Stephanie 50.0 report. Well, I am where I am supposed to be. Which means that it will be another two weeks. Ramadan begins tomorrow which is great. It has taken me all of the last three weeks to get into the way of fasting. Yesterday I did have the fried rice for lunch and seaweed gloop for dinner. I had a bit of some dark chocolate but no Easter choc. And I had my usual fruit. I have absolutely no appetite. I don't know what it is but that's good. I think it's just my body going yeah - you're fine. I don't know if I will ever feel that unnecessary hunger again. Well it is a good thing I'm not going to Singapore this year! 

I am slowly using up all the food in the house which is great. I used by the ducks' eggs from the Easter egg making and the veg. I have Caesar salad which I can have for lunch. I have seaweed gloop for dinner.

Ithim sailéad Caesar don lón agus anraith miso ag an dinnéar. That's pretty good I think. 

All in all I am completely correct regarding the timelines for getting myself into shape. It will be a mildly busy day today. But you know what I have learnt this Easter that I have all the freaking time in the world and I don't have to go about like a mad person rushing all the time. I am good. I mean really really good just chilling and taking things easy. I don't have to prove anything to anyone any more. It feels great. Just really really doing something to the best of my ability is what it's all about for me. But doing it slowly and thoughtfully and carefully. This Easter I really found that centre. I am no longer having to force it.

So, in addition to many many things that have happened over the past couple of years, like breakthroughs in existential meanings, I now add these other realisations which have emerged over the past few weeks (in addition to the formula for having good health).

1. I have all the time in the world. Take it easy, always. I have literally arranged my life so that I do things which are meaningful in that they are nourishing for me and hopefully for other people. That I am a net contributor to the good of humanity. I mean I can try my best and if that does not succeed, that's all I can do. So TAKE IT EASY. THERE IS NO RUSH. ENJOY LIFE.

2. Breathe. I have only just discovered this. Over the past twenty years having children has meant that I have had to be on someone else's time. I also had zero assistance in this. Literally zero. I had no family, Peter was offside 90% of the time, and I had a full time job. I now have peace and time on my hands. This has been the far side of the ocean I have had to sail with the boys. So yeah, if I have had nothing to do over the past few weeks I am not going to feel guilty. BREATHE.

3. I love being on my own. My life entails meeting and being with lots and lots of people and I have had my fair share of wonderful love. I really cannot complain. I love being proudly on my own. I really do not desire and want any of the companionship which other people seem to crave. I don't want to work at having long term companions. I would much rather have friends. MUCH RATHER. And another thing I don't want to work at is compromising shit and putting up with assholes. Playing games. None of that bullshit. I have done my time in the mines. I am now the VIRGIN QUEEN. I embody the essence of the Virgo.

Yesterday the idea of the Garden of Paradise also came to me. Something is bubbling, something is stirring. And I am going to let it simmer and stew and boil. And then the picture will be made clear.

My Garden of Paradise... mu writing. OK I should get started with the writing. I promised myself that I would do that everyday and by 21 June had a first draft to look at. But yes, I am now certified in understanding these neurodiverse issues more and also in nature connectedness which has reinforced my sense of how people need to connect with nature.