#46.21 - The Age of Bull

There is no doubt that life is full of amazing things. Yesterday for instance, I felt sad and Oisin can round to telling me that he would help me by doing a project - building a d birdtable in this case.

Hung out with Emma for a bit yesterday. I will clean the car today. That will be my cleaning task for the day.

I said to Emma yesterday how I was utterly embarrassed to be a member of the human race. It was now officially a stupid mistake to have been born a human being - to have chosen this form. I must have been so hopeful when I decided to take this path - maybe I didn't have a choice. But right now, in this place and time, we cannot say we did not know. Why was the Internet invented? To bring information to people and bring us together so that we could work together and build a better place. That was the intention of the Internet and it was the same for TV. Instead what do we have, moronic quiz shows and hate groups. People have become utterly distracted and sidetracked by their own idiocy while whose who have been able to exploit this have gone on to continue to exploit the frailty of human nature - cynically. To make money, as if that amount of money could bring happiness, to trash the planet as if they didn't belong to it, to gratify themselves in the most superficial of ways, to spew bile on each other as if this would never come back to haunt them. I look at the whole shebang and think, well who wants to be a part of this? I am so sickened.

So pissed off.

It is revolting. And not in a political sense either. There is something abut the human condition that makes us susceptible to demonic possession. I think is has something to do with the very cleverly identified seven deadly sins. I dunno what it is. 

As I watch people tear each other apart, I wonder where these people think it is going to end. I also resent this privatisation of everything during lockdown. The government has taken ZERO responsibility for anything beyond making the fucking vaccine and we are all supposed to take care of everything else from not dying of hunger to making sure we don't fall in. Every single decision they have made has been to make things worse, to prolong the hardship. Are they trying to kill off the most vulnerable in society? Nothing about the way they have behaved says this is as deadly as they claim it is. Is there any wonder that there is a disconnect between what people are seeing and what they are being told and so people are filling in the blanks, with apparently what turns out to be complete and utterly bollocks from either side of the political spectrum. And it also buys into people's biases - so the so called Left - they aren't really left but the educated elite and their constant bleating about 'science' the mantra they have swallowed have gone on and gone about 'scientific' solutions. Let us not forget that less than 100 years ago smoking was a scientific solution. And on the Right, the mantra of 'economy' is now being regurgitated - the 'it's the economy stupid' slogan of the late 80s, has come home to haunt us in ways we could not have imagined. In the meantime, here I am caught in the middle. Actually scratch that. It is not the middle at all. I have just upped sticks and left. Gone. Disappeared.

I am bored now. I have always known that information was not the key, but ethics. However ethical capture has taken place amongst the most corrosive religions of the time. Fundamentalism in this sphere has resulted in driving moderates from what could have been spiritual sustenance into a foggy kind of agonostic miasma and the aetheists are just as bad as the fundys. It is a complete fucking nightmare we have railroaded ourselves into.

I am not having any part of it anymore. The internet has become a completely insane space. People think they are living in the future when actually, they are much much closer to the Middle Ages in terms of their magical thinking. From the irrational insistence of the vaccine as the silver bullet, the holy water, to the Othering of difference. I am done here.

I also refuse to take responsibility for the government's incompetence. I am no longer going to do this shit any more. I am not just going to enjoy myself in the last days of Rome. I always used to wonder when and how it would end. I have my answer now.

It ends with invasion of every single sphere of our lives by government. The insistence we take responsibility for our own behaviour. It is utter breakdown of community. That is how it has ended. And we walked straight into it. It ends with the privatisation of every single sphere in our lives - where people either go to the wall or just cope on their own. A scorched earth where there are no prisoners taken. It ends with a rent an opinion - where any idiot with a microphone feels free to say something. Opnions mean nothing now. 

This is how it ends. That's fine. I don't know how the boys are going to cope, all I know is that I am going to have to love them completely and utterly - in the same way I am going to love my friends completely and utterly. That is all I have right now. 

It is literally the Age of the Bull. Literally. The more things change, the more they stay the same.