#279 - The 5%

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Making baked apples


I think life is about 5% suffering. You always need about 5% suffering in your life - at least 5%. Sometimes it can feel like more than 5% - it can be 95%, but then there is always 5% goodness if you look at it. 5% to keep you going. 5% to keep things sweet. Having had a week and a half I have decided of the rule of 10%. You must always have 5% or suffering of goodness in your life. Life cannot be 100% good or 100% bad - there is always the teeny tiny bit that keeps it real or let's you have hope. All you can do is count your blessings when the chips are down or feel grateful when things are riding high. Just ride the back of the dragon while this goes on. I know I have tried my best and that is all I can do. I am here to learn and to try and spread some goodness and cheer. But sometimes I do end up down dead ends and then, then... there isn't a lot else you can do but turn around and do back down the path which you have come. 

Why 5%? Just to keep it real. Nothing can be 100%, at all times.

So always, the 5% - look to it - whatever the circumstances, just to keep it real.

The boys - 100%. 100% all the time. They are amazing. That they are ok makes everything better. Oisin is in university and Ghin is healthy and doing well in school. I have raised them to be good kids. That is important. I did my best while I could.

For me now, there are loads of great things going - I have a roof over my head - the balance that out I need to sell our houses and I need to get on with this. I need to get divorced and I need to get on with this. To me that roof over the head is 70% in that equation, the 30% is the annoying bits.

I have to say I am no longer going for very happy. If i get 60% good things in my life I'll be satisfied with that. Perhaps this is the decade when I stop being such a fucking try hard. Right I'm going to update the website and then head out for a run after. I need to start doing something for fitness - and then clear the garage for the next few hours. In fact today is the day I finish clearing the garage.


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