1.10.24 - Rain

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Forest school is now 5 years old. We started five years ago exactly. I can't QUITE believe its 5 years old though. OK 2020 was shite, but this has been good - there has been a steady growth and people have known about us here and there, now and then. 

But slowly and surely, it has been growing. We offer and hold space for children and anyone really. And the goddess arm of my life has also begun to sprout and bring forth.

Whyyyy do I find people who just exist on the surface of life, who are for some reason unable to understand the injustice which underlies their behaviours and spout cliche rideen trite at you about their travels or their families. It's boring. It's childish. It's pathetic.

Anyway, not my monkeys.

I should just shut up. The life and lead is one of meaning and if other people choose or not choose to live it, then who am I to get pissed off with them.

I spoke to Siuban about how I was feeling about the boys and she very wisely said to me, do not feel that way. They spent the entire summer with you and they are doing what they can to live a normal life. And you will always have them. And it's true. Just like that it was gone. I am very lucky to be surrounded with good good friends.

Friends who look out for me.

What also can I say?

Yesterday was good. I spent the evening with Oisin and I told him what Siuban said and said to him that he needn't feel awful doing stuff he needs to do. So we spent the evening watching Penguin and eating dried mangoes and cashew nuts.

After the gym. Where I swam for 20 minutes and did the sauna. 

Life is truly incredible.

Yes, another day of not drinking. I actually said at the firepit yesterday, I do wish sometimes I did drink - but it is weird. Not drinking is just the go to option now and since 25th December I can count the number of times I have drunk alcohol on one hand - and it has never been alone. Did anyone think that such a thing could be ended so swiftly?

I guess i'll end this post today. I should celebrate Elements turning 5 on it's FB page...

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