Discombobulation

Ghin being a meme....

I have been very confused since I've returned. My brain does not seem to be wired right. I cannot tell you why, but I can tell you that I have tried my very best to get to the bottom of it.

It seems to be mostly made up of me being very distracted and unable to focus. I really don't know what to do. I have tried creating a schedule but ... well, let me describe it... on some days I wonder, did I brush my teeth? The good news is that yes! I have always brushed my teeth, but how come I doubt that. I have to double check everything now - especially like turning off the stove - when previously I would have done it without thinking twice. Sometimes... I forget what I have eaten earlier in the day... or I forget who the girl who sat naked on top a wrecking ball - er what was her name?

I have looked at the symptoms of early onset dementia - and in fact I have none of them. In fact, I seem to have an excess of consciousness about my problems with what may be perceived as dementia. 

So, for now, I do not have dementia.... 

So there is literally no excuse.

Right. I will now look at my schedule for the week and reschedule things I had already scheduled and try to sort things out. 

The whole foot thing has really thrown me, literally and metaphorically, and you know part of the not saying I was injured and getting on with it has just been my entire life. Certainly my entire life in Ireland. But I must acknowledge that it has been awful. I did have all these things done to me and I will cut myself more slack. More slack. 

I will not be so hard on myself. To the point where I am happy to walk around with a broken foot.

So what will I do about being LESS discombobulated.

Well, first I need to stop thinking or over thinking things. Then I must ignore the monkey on my back. I need to focus on the positive things. The good things. The things I am in control of. And then I need to sort out my life a bit...

To that end... I will now sit down to do my schedule, wash my dishes and then wipe down the kitchen. And reset things. It is kinda hard doing that on a broken foot, but it is what it is... and I will go easy on myself.