17.9.23

In recovery

There is something completely reprehensible about destroying people who speak out with their own weaknesses. It has happened to two people which I won't say I admire, but am grateful for for being such effective voices in speaking truth to power. In the past, it has been the Epsteins and the Prince Andrews of the world which have been kicked to the curb - and good that they are. They have gone down in flames while still rolling about in the mud. They were being exposed for the exploiters which they are.

And yes, more needs to be done for the hypocrites of the world.

For those who are doing the truth to power thing - there needs to be a more critical appraisal of the WHY it is being done. Is this a double standard from me? Yes and no. No cos Brand has not only said, this is what I did, I was on a bender and I did wrong. PLUS I no longer take advantage of the position I used to be in, instead I am now speaking up against assholes like Gates, like Big Pharma, like... well whomever. And there needs to be redemption. He is trying his very best. He has repented. There needs to be forgiveness.

In the case of Epstein and Andrew, no - they were still living it up, lying. Trying to get away with it. Talking shite about being in Pizza Express. I think where Brand falls flat is where, if those accounts are true and they probably are, he did force himself on these women. Possibly even more. However, everyone was enabling this. He is the Jimmy Saville of his time. I honestly cannot understand how those people stood by and watched.

But that was the ether we swam in. It was completely hateful.

To be a man was to have your cake and eat it. The sexual exploitation was off the scale. I remember it. Holding my own against the culture - standing up against them. Doing media awareness training... it was reprehensible. 

It was revolting.

And for some reason people thought that this was a sign of power for women. To have their bodies paraded all over the place. This was a good thing. Women like Sinead O Connor were laughed at. Women like Miley Cyrus were celebrated. Getting your kit off while sitting on a giant ball was ok, while saying you were abused was not.

So, here we are sitting on a legacy of awfulness and now it has come back to bite these people. Taking responsibility - it is better to say nothing. If you are me. Apart from there needs to be a worldwide apology tour from all these assholes. Then maybe the circle can be squared.

Probably not.

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Foot Update

There something quite amazing about the human body. Yesterday, after not walking around too much, it is now not swollen anymore. Only the space between the 4th and 5th toe. Apart from that the swelling has gone down - and of course, where the bone is, is sore and swollen. But apart from that I take it that it is healing well.

Many people have told me that my pain threshold must be off the scale. It is something I have never considered. Can I withstand much pain? I wonder if that's true in my life in other parts as well? Is it a pain threshold or simply being very very very stubborn? It has given me food for thought. Where people have tried to bend or break me... what does it mean? That I have insisted on outlasting, holding on when all hope was gone, what? 

Yes, food - or foot - for thought indeed.