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It was so lovely yesterday, having dinner with Heidi. What a woman. What a force. What modesty. Such an inspiration to how we live. She is incredible. She and Ruth Caughers. Women to be inspired by. She Ruth Caughers and Gabriel. Half a generation up and keeping me sane while the world goes mental. The sense of proportion always at the forefront of everything. Like Ma. Women who have lived large in their own way and always kept it real. These women. Women who trod their own path, found their own truth and moved through their times with integrity and honesty. And some guile. And some courage. These women. They keep me sane. Tough as nails and yet kind. Sensible. Sturdy. Unwavering.

Yeah, those women.

As social media descends into chaos, I use it for just promoting Elements. That's it. Nothing else. I do post things about life... but really to state opinions that no longer happens on social media unless you are a sociopath. It is no longer the tool of campaigning which it used to be.

It can't be. I remember back in the day - it is no longer back in the day anymore.

Yesterday was the Day of Receipts. I also did the dishes and the trash. And I did the laundry. There is a lot of laundry now that Oisín is back. Poor Ghin. Railroaded into cancelling things he has already made plans for without consultation or consideration. Poor Ghin. Always having to put himself behind everyone else. I feel his pain I really do.

I can only hope that he is able to find his voice as he gets older. I will do what I can and trust in everything else. Heidi said to me yesterday - as do many people - how wonderful Ghin and Oisín are. They are rather wonderful. Incredible boys. Already I feel Oisín pushing against the membrane of adulthood. I can feel the ego body storming in invisibly. I told this to Heidi last night and she understood what I meant. It was also good that she was able to tell Oisín what he was doing was not on. I think it has worked out for the best really.

The whole Covid thing has now gone completely doolally. I think that we have come very full circle. In a population which is half educated, mostly through rote learning, in a population which is more or less completely media illiterate even through they grew up with it all around them, we have now hit peak crazy. Or stupidity. Whatever you wish. I find myself now constantly exhausted trying to hold back the stupid. This stupid. So the full circle i'm referring to is not Covid itself, but the consciousness of the human being. How mad people are now. The extremism, the illogical thought process - fear really is the mind killer. People who have never paid attention to anything are suddenly plunged into the deep end. People who cannot seem to put one and one together are now putting two. People find their trusted source and now quote it extensively, religiously. People are questioning climate change because they have not seen past the social injustice of the debates which surround it. 

People questioning racial and gender equality and yet at the same time not understanding the problem with equality and the environment. And people completely sucked in by social media. And not just simple newsfeeds but mental ones too. Recently Facebook started sending me videos about people living ridiculous lives. I was like - why? And the Comments were like the stupid oppressed... oh I wish I had that, oh wonderful. So clever. Are millennials really so vacuous?  As I said recently to Gabriel I am in danger of becoming a grumpy old woman. 

But I guess I was always grumpy. Just a bit.

Today... is house hoovering... and also organising. Tomorrow i head down to the site to put up the A frame. Today is beautiful. Moody and misty. Perfect for writing. And drawing.. which is what I am going to do.