#307 - Putting in the time...

Finally go the desk organised today. I wasn't expecting it, but Ghin having to study for his exams has meant that I am here accompanying him and sorting things out as well.

I have really let the routines slip big time. Between doing too much and being unable to get it together... well...

So I'm gonna just list things here which I need to pay attention to once more... here we go again.

First, I want to just say that despite not being a mother of very young children, I still feel exhausted all of the fecking time. I think maybe you have just enough reserves to do what you need to do and if you use it all up, then, you know, you've used it all up. My brain has also seemed to have gone AWOL. I find writing, playing the piano, anything which requires the least bit of intelligence impossible. I was writing music there the other day and I was utterly SHOCKED as to how I was unable to focus properly on ANYTHING at all. It was like my brain had been sucked out of my ear and I was left with some bits and pieces. I do worry that I will have dementia. Heidi once said that people who are very intellectual tend to have dementia. Am I an intellectual? 

I organised the table and sorted stuff out. It feels good. Today when Ghin does his work I'll do the final organisational push which will include accounts and emails. Ugh. Answer things which need answering. It has been a busy time.