#185 - I'll Wait

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Drew this a long time ago - I should get it framed really

This is what I hope to live in eventually. This place. A tiny boat and a tiny house - probably somewhere in Ireland. A great library, simple food. The occasional friend...I was chatting to Thomas and I said that really I am a loner. A solitary soul. People see me and think I am an extrovert... it began because he said that he loved making a meal with someone and hated eating alone, he found it very difficult, and I said, I love eating on my own, even going to the cinema on my own... I not only don't mind, it is critical for my sanity - it might also have to do with constant engagement all day long with people and children - and having children of my own - that being alone is something I adore.

But yes, this - this place... and the light in the window... see this, I can't wait for the entire world to go off grid. It just makes sense right? To lead the simple life.

I know I've put up lots of photos of myself recently, but the thing is right - one day I would want to look back and see myself and know that I knew what I looked like. As I grow older I realise how stupid I was to think I was not beautiful. I was very beautiful, not in a typically beautiful way, but beautiful nonetheless and I need to celebrate this, in the same way I celebrate my son's beauty, in the way I celebrate the beauty of the ocean, a sunrise - I mean why the hell not right?

So yes... and I am looking great now, so also, why the hell not. Right, time for that time table to be started... then I am going to plan my book, go for my run, have some breakfast and then organise, go to Ma's house, turn everything off and then head to school for a couple of hours. After that, I'll be home for 3 pm to pack and be ready to leave.

This past week has been beautifully busy.

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