This is my macro lens, this is my zoom...
So if people think i am not really concentrating on my book they would be absolutely right... not only have i managed to rearrange and organise my YouTube Playlists, fiddle around with my camera, but i have also managed to bake the bread instead of proof it. Wonderful.
But i just had to share my delicious new cameras macro, zoom and then ...
I just need to finish chapter four and then i'll go for a walk in Stormont and take lots and lots of lovely photos of the world around me :-)
I have just pain in bed for most f the day trying to get this fourth chapter done. I'm finally at the Earth incarnation and i'm now just going yeah, um, ok, whatever. Just get it over and done with. I think that when i finally finish this the overwhelming feeling i will get is firstly, thank GOD that's over and done with, then i will feel, wha?, and then i will feel oh dear god, for two reasons: one just you know, oh dear god, the second is, where exactly does that leave us in terms of thinking about things.
Things in fact are beginning, through a combination of post birthday haze, lots of reading, lots of ambient chill out music, look slightly detatched. And now they are going to be even MORE detatched. Because quite simply, everything which i thought was real life is not real life AT ALL. The game has utterly changed and the new cards have been dealt and the universe is saying, right PLAY. Try and fit your nice comfortable world that you used to live into THIS.
And honestly i am a bit worried. I am going to have to rethink many many things that i used to take forgranted. Like spirituality used to be warm cuddly word, slightly spaced out and a bit sweet. Now it is massive. It fills the cosmos and several cosmoses - cosmosii?? - in fact. In quite a specific way. And we, what the hell are we human beings doing here? What is it all about? When previously i was quite content to just 'do my best' i realise that i'm a complete slacker. I mean not just that lying in bed all of the 28th, but also there are THINGS imporant THINGS that need to be done which have nothing to do with the important things that i thought needed doing. I am just sleeping. I need to wake up. To wake up from the Matrix, to choose the red pill.
All this conflict... i have a feeling that i am going to have an entirely new take on the world by the time chapter 4 is concluded. And what the HECK am i going to do with this? Well, think about it, but if i go beyond thinking... you see that's kinda scary.
Listening to Pink Floyd's Shine On You Crazy Diamond... a long time ago a friend gave this to me a compliation TAPE, yes it was that long ago. And it just reminds me of when i was 21 and so very very young... god, how could i ever been that young?
In many ways the last day or so has been like a recap of Sumatra, where i am just reading and lying in bed when i'm not rushing around, really left to myself and the strange thoughts that occupy me. It's probably not good actually. If the boys don't come home tomorrow, i'm going into town or reorganising the cupboards in the house/kitchen.
But i just had to share my delicious new cameras macro, zoom and then ...
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| Look at that, National Geographic here i come |
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| Every speck of dust on this pinecone... |
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| That guinea pig was so far away and that turned oput so clear... |
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| That's just me... like self-portriat... |
I have just pain in bed for most f the day trying to get this fourth chapter done. I'm finally at the Earth incarnation and i'm now just going yeah, um, ok, whatever. Just get it over and done with. I think that when i finally finish this the overwhelming feeling i will get is firstly, thank GOD that's over and done with, then i will feel, wha?, and then i will feel oh dear god, for two reasons: one just you know, oh dear god, the second is, where exactly does that leave us in terms of thinking about things.
Things in fact are beginning, through a combination of post birthday haze, lots of reading, lots of ambient chill out music, look slightly detatched. And now they are going to be even MORE detatched. Because quite simply, everything which i thought was real life is not real life AT ALL. The game has utterly changed and the new cards have been dealt and the universe is saying, right PLAY. Try and fit your nice comfortable world that you used to live into THIS.
And honestly i am a bit worried. I am going to have to rethink many many things that i used to take forgranted. Like spirituality used to be warm cuddly word, slightly spaced out and a bit sweet. Now it is massive. It fills the cosmos and several cosmoses - cosmosii?? - in fact. In quite a specific way. And we, what the hell are we human beings doing here? What is it all about? When previously i was quite content to just 'do my best' i realise that i'm a complete slacker. I mean not just that lying in bed all of the 28th, but also there are THINGS imporant THINGS that need to be done which have nothing to do with the important things that i thought needed doing. I am just sleeping. I need to wake up. To wake up from the Matrix, to choose the red pill.
All this conflict... i have a feeling that i am going to have an entirely new take on the world by the time chapter 4 is concluded. And what the HECK am i going to do with this? Well, think about it, but if i go beyond thinking... you see that's kinda scary.
Listening to Pink Floyd's Shine On You Crazy Diamond... a long time ago a friend gave this to me a compliation TAPE, yes it was that long ago. And it just reminds me of when i was 21 and so very very young... god, how could i ever been that young?
In many ways the last day or so has been like a recap of Sumatra, where i am just reading and lying in bed when i'm not rushing around, really left to myself and the strange thoughts that occupy me. It's probably not good actually. If the boys don't come home tomorrow, i'm going into town or reorganising the cupboards in the house/kitchen.
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