Random thoughts
I am now part of a reading group which is an offshoot of the school. It looks at the writings of Steiner and discusses them. It is unlike any reading group that i've every been to because of the way we regard Steiner. Because i know so little about Steiner i spend much of my time listening. But also i do not apply any CRITICISM - they way i would perhaps if i was studying say, Darwin or anyone else.
Steiner said that he had the ability to see beings. Supernatural beings and he was very specific about the way they appeared and the role that they played. I do not know enough about what he thought - but this ability then made him go on to develop this system called spiritual science. He did get a PhD somewhere, i can't remember hwere now, but he also said that most of the techniques used in science was a 'dead' kind of science. Science he said was lacking the dimension of the spirit. In the 1920s he was not unique in railing against the forces of materialism.
But he was unique in attributing a spiritual force, a dark angel which actually perpetrated them. According to Steiner there are two forces - Luciferian and Ahrimanic - which prevent human beings from incarnating. Lucifer prevents the ego from being part of the earth through causing it to be over emotional, flighty and fanatical. Ahriman does so by binding the body to the earth and not allowing it to move on. It is fascinating.
I don't know about these forces as thinking and conscious entities, but we see them at work all the time in our overly materialistic lives.
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Well today i felt pretty crap at work. Which makes a change from feeling great. But it seemed ok to say i was feeling crap, so i shared that. Isn't that weird? People accept you could feel crap for no reason and if you feel happy i feel embarrassed to say so?
Came home, had dinner (which Peter made), cleaned out the fireplace, it the fire which lasted all of 15 minutes and with Oisin's help we washed out the fishtank. Ghin was in a right mood today. I have never seen him so stroppy and discontented. It turns out that he was sleepy. If i thought he had tantrums before, dear god, he has entered a new phase. He went nuclear today when i took off this clothes for the bath. As soon as i put him on the floor he ran straight for the wastepaper basket in our room and fished out his old nappy (which wasn't that old, thankfully) and tried to wear it again. His entire body was wrecked with sobs which he stood over the bin and regarded his discarded nappy. He finally calmed down after i gave him a towel bath.
I fell asleep of course with him and when i woke Peter had the TV on. I watched this for ten minutes and then did the dishes. It was really difficult pulling myself away from the TV. The thing is that when i watch TV, it does tend to be the news, which can seem rather worthy. But with the internet, i no longer have an excuse.
I must do the finances next.
That's the next big hurdle. The papers and finances.
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What will we make of the study room? It is the one room in the house that isn't ever used. We use it as a glorified storeroom right now - although i must say that it is not as messy as a storeroom. As i write this, a thought occurred to me that it could, in addition to being the guest room, serve as an arts and crafts room. A proper one. I must get rid of all the books that we don't need. The computer needs to be serviced. Perhaps a new computer got. But if i turned it into a crafts room, that would make the most sense for now. One day it will become Ghin's room.
I suppose that's what we really should be working towards.
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Steiner said that he had the ability to see beings. Supernatural beings and he was very specific about the way they appeared and the role that they played. I do not know enough about what he thought - but this ability then made him go on to develop this system called spiritual science. He did get a PhD somewhere, i can't remember hwere now, but he also said that most of the techniques used in science was a 'dead' kind of science. Science he said was lacking the dimension of the spirit. In the 1920s he was not unique in railing against the forces of materialism.
But he was unique in attributing a spiritual force, a dark angel which actually perpetrated them. According to Steiner there are two forces - Luciferian and Ahrimanic - which prevent human beings from incarnating. Lucifer prevents the ego from being part of the earth through causing it to be over emotional, flighty and fanatical. Ahriman does so by binding the body to the earth and not allowing it to move on. It is fascinating.
I don't know about these forces as thinking and conscious entities, but we see them at work all the time in our overly materialistic lives.
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Well today i felt pretty crap at work. Which makes a change from feeling great. But it seemed ok to say i was feeling crap, so i shared that. Isn't that weird? People accept you could feel crap for no reason and if you feel happy i feel embarrassed to say so?
Came home, had dinner (which Peter made), cleaned out the fireplace, it the fire which lasted all of 15 minutes and with Oisin's help we washed out the fishtank. Ghin was in a right mood today. I have never seen him so stroppy and discontented. It turns out that he was sleepy. If i thought he had tantrums before, dear god, he has entered a new phase. He went nuclear today when i took off this clothes for the bath. As soon as i put him on the floor he ran straight for the wastepaper basket in our room and fished out his old nappy (which wasn't that old, thankfully) and tried to wear it again. His entire body was wrecked with sobs which he stood over the bin and regarded his discarded nappy. He finally calmed down after i gave him a towel bath.
I fell asleep of course with him and when i woke Peter had the TV on. I watched this for ten minutes and then did the dishes. It was really difficult pulling myself away from the TV. The thing is that when i watch TV, it does tend to be the news, which can seem rather worthy. But with the internet, i no longer have an excuse.
I must do the finances next.
That's the next big hurdle. The papers and finances.
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What will we make of the study room? It is the one room in the house that isn't ever used. We use it as a glorified storeroom right now - although i must say that it is not as messy as a storeroom. As i write this, a thought occurred to me that it could, in addition to being the guest room, serve as an arts and crafts room. A proper one. I must get rid of all the books that we don't need. The computer needs to be serviced. Perhaps a new computer got. But if i turned it into a crafts room, that would make the most sense for now. One day it will become Ghin's room.
I suppose that's what we really should be working towards.
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