Homesick!!

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Oh my god! Today i watched a P Ramlee clip courtesy of my friend Tien Yi and i began to listen to all the songs on You Tube and finally came to a clip of Ramlee and Saloma singing Bengawan Solo.

It is about 5 degrees and the wind is howling outside and i just want to go home!!! To be back where there are jungles and family and where its hot and people are rue to each other and it is totally overcrowded - but it's home!

I miss home so much!!!

Bengawan Solo...

And the funniest thing is that i don't think that home i want to go to even really exists. It's a Singapore from the 60s - a simpler, less complicated more humble Singapore. Or is it myself i'm really talking about?

Today we tried doing family things - as usual it doesn't always go according to plan. I ended up taking Oisin out on my own, which was lovely but by the time i got home Peter who had gone for Zen till one, was really tired. Ghin was in diapers and no one was much in the mood to do any interior decorating, the creation of sacred spaces. We did manage to move out the TV though - to discover that the TV we've shipped in - much smalller - etc does not work with the Sky or video.

We have restored the dining room though - and that's great. I really find pushing the table against the wall rather asymmetrical though and that does bug me a bit.

I don't know if Peter is going for this idea of vol simplicity. I think he likes it as an idea but actually carrying it out i think he finds a bit corny. I told him about my 'sacred spaces of loveliness' and he rolled his eyes. Don't make it too complicated he said. Just something small.

Sigh.

I think i'm just going to have to do this on my own...as usual...

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