25.8.25 - Final day of the holidays

 

Thought I'd use this today - the genocide of our time goes on. Are these people actually insane? What happened to them? Where is there humanity? I have no more words for them. None.

It's 3 am. But I got up at 1 am. This is really going nowhere. It's day 4 since I got back, Well jetlag is worst around day 3. You think you've got it licked and actually you haven't got it licked at all. The best you can hope for is you haven't picked up something disgusting on the plane.

I managed to tidy the garage which I am so happy with. Today I MUST do the deed and get the accounts sorted. I have waited for far too long. What I'll do is I'll do it down here and then bring all the things upstairs to the office. I don't know if I can still use the very slow laptop. It just takes an age booting up. I did the right thing taking Pa's unused computer.

Pa got his tooth extracted. Old age is crap. I just want to die at 65. I've really had the fullest life possible. That is 10 years time. I think that's ok. People always say, oh that's so young - yeah, maybe if you have been waiting all your life to retire to do what you want, but I have not been doing that. I have been doing exactly what I have wanted my entire life. 

I am currently reading The Yellow Wallpaper by Charlotte Perkins Gilman. It is astonishing how revolutionary she was in the last 19th century. I think these assholes had to invent wars because they saw that people were planning new and wonderful things and they just want to smash everything back to the Stone Age so they can be in charge again. It's all about control and power.

A breakthrough was about to take place in the late 19th century and the powers that were couldn't bear it. Countries still gained their independence... It's difficult to understand that Singapore is only 5 years older than I am since independence. My childhood was part of that nation building story. I was the daughter of Lee Kuan Yew. As much as his own children were. Possibly even more. 

I should have left this piano in Singapore. Why did I bring it here? So stupid. And my books as well. 

Well did I know I was going to go back at some stage? Even if it is for a short while.

So, to recap yesterday.

I ran and did 65 sit ups.

I sorted the table of this room.

I set up the lap top here - I basically set up this room so I can now use it to do my work in.

I sorted the garage - that took me 2 hours!

I saw the boys.

Then I came home and was entirely tired when I told myself I would do transcribing. 

I just had something small to eat for dinner.

Then I mostly slept from 6 pm to 1 pm... such is life...

I will check the office now and then... it is time to do the Elements accounts. One step at a time.