6.4.25 - This fucking year

The boys enjoying a free game of tennis with no net on a filthy court... ghetto tennis they called it

It has been the best spring in living memory

Thoughts on Gaza

The past week has been awful. Actually this whole year has been awful. From spending money I wish I didn't have to spend to the fucking Zionists and Gaza and then hearing about friends getting sick and unwell, and finally, the end of an international order.

America is a typical narcissist. It held the international order for as long as it suited them and when they couldn't get away with it anymore, they threw all the toys out of the pram, leaving everyone feeling completely confused. I hope this is a lesson to idiotic countries, the neoliberal who thought they could beat America at its own game. How dare they. How dare they think that the could outstrip the natural advantage which stolen had had given them...

The question now is - for how long do destructive cycles last - 30 years. From the Troubles to the WTO - 30 years. A war on the planet globalisation was. How long can stolen land assist you - 200 years. Give or take. 

I was so depressed when I heard about the ambulance massacre. The scale and disgusting barbaric animalistic nature of it was undeniable. The lies - only until a phone was discovered. And the last words of the man who took it was Forgive mother for wanting to have a job which helps people. And the fucking IOL, the fucking Zionists armed by the fucking Americans. My anger just overwhelms me. I can't do this any longer. I am utterly spent.

This fucking year.

This fucking year.

I was getting back this week. Then this.

Last night Lawrence Wong came out to effectively say that all the international institutions are now dead. They are ineffective. We have now entered an age where people can just do anything to anyone and no one will stand in their way if they are from the right race and just don't care about it. It is a bit rich for the PAP to be whining about it since LKY violated the rule of law CONSTANTLY. Flagrantly. He locked people up in jails when they had a different opinion. There was NO freedom of speech. No one could say anything. No one.

So now bleating on about an international world order... well good luck to you.

But what is my strategy? I don't know what my strategy is, or if I even have a strategy any longer. I am in mourning. I complete and utter mourning. I cannot any longer bear the weight of this horrible genocide.

I knew that Israel would reliate on October 7, but I did not know that this would happen like this. I did not know. I did not know.

I did not think that the humanity of Israelis and of the white Europeans had completely deserted them. That they were now, and probably always had been, devoid of the most basic tenants of humanity. That they had turned the religion of love into one of conquest should have been that red flag. That they had no qualms about slaughtering their own kind for millennia, that should also have been a red flag. We live so close to the edge of barbarity.

The Israelis, the Zionists, always possessed it. They exported it to the Palestinians and when the Palestinians stood up for themselves, they butchered them. They are now insane. Every morning they wake up and they foam at their mouths.

Thankfully a resistance is building in Isarel. Thankfully this is happening. But will there be anything left of the Palestinians before the war ends? 

There are no leaders on this planet. There are none which are left. The best lacj conviction while the worst are full of passionate intensity. We are now back to square one of a hundred years ago. 

I don't know what else to say.

There is nothing else to say. Nothing.

It's over.