A Simple Place

The human being is a space and time artist. That is, i think, in the simplest terms, the best description of what we are here to do. There is no other explanation that is required. And yet, in every thing in Western culture, people are raised to believe that they are not artists but conquerors. You can hear it especially in language which then translates into behaviours. 

Beat the clock.

Maximum efficiency.

Productivity.

The Hustle.

The Grind.

Conquering Hero.

Profitability.

Then time and space is measured, parceled up and then utilised. Part of this is for our own sanity. In order to live. Part of this is to help us become the master craftsperson of the lives we lead. measurement is one of the tools in the toolkit of choice. To help us weigh up those choices. It is even in the language. Weighing. BUT the neurosis happens when it is all that there is. When it become the ONLY thing which exists. Then... 

The trouble with measurement and its power to control is that it is highly addicitive. It works. And in its working then, we end up overusing it. the overuse, the being unable to stop ourselves. The idea of moderation - the idea of being able to say, well this is enough for me. That is very very hard.

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During the Brigid exercise, I realised something - how much I had been resisting Brigid because of the memories of my youth and I saw at once that they needed healing, once I had spoken them. My own youth, I have a deep recollection of being tremendously happy, but also tremendously confused. About so much. As I got older the confusion only got worse, and so much in my own journey was shaped by the reaction to the confusion which I had. 

Society imposes these ridiculous expectations and rules on us. For instance, the gender difference between girls and boys. So needless, so unnecessary. Like what and why exactly do we need to have these gender orms of boys shouldn't cry, or girls are to be sweet and demure? Who exactly does that benefit? It doesn't benefit the boys and it doesn't benefit the girls? Is this to some how cultivate a pointless mystique about the sexes or genders so that what? Like what exactly? The only thing I can think which makes this sensible is that we have confused the archetypes with the actual genders. It's completely idiotic.

The essentialism - I cannot even. So that completely confused me.

Having to be in competition about everything. I don't understand competition - competition is something which is used by those in charge to continue to keep and accrue the resources which they have. That is all it is. And we are idiots to continue to take part in that system. Competition is the funneling up of money. It is pointless and moronic. I don't understand why anyone would decide they wanted in on that - that is a game I want skin in. No. You don't want skin in that game - it will make you completely mental. 

You want to build a house of co-operation on the otherside of the river and just watch those mad people hammer each other to death. I have heard enough about Harry to know that this young man, and his poor brother, birth order has doomed them to a life of misery.

People talk about Harry's privilege and how he has been tone deaf - but then you could also say that about Buddha - he was tone deaf. He should have just stayed in his palace and minded his own business. I don't know - the brain is quite mushy today, not sure why...