Almost there

It has been a completely mental week. Made the houses and we are now in the home stretch. I am so tired really. 

I also find that now being 50-ish and all I literally cannot be bothered with so many things. I now regret that I said I would celebrate my birthday. Maybe i'll just cancel it. I don't know why I suggested it.

Anyway, Oisin is not coming over - till after Christmas, which I don't understand why he won't just stay in the UK. Honestly. But Ghin is having Christmas dinner with me. So that will be v nice. But Christmas is very boring. It is a bit of a damp squib to me. 

The coming year is going to be exciting. I can't wait really. It is the year of the horse? I'm not sure... is it the year of the horse? Or the oh no, its the Rabbit. Its the year of the Rabbit. Jac will be 48 years old. She was painting her boat's hull yesterday. I don't understand why she is painting her own boat...

I feel a bit bleh. I mean quite bleh/ I think the new moon is coming up and stuff. I was watching Daybreak which sums up the state of American life for teenagers. Adults who have become goo because of a biological nuclear bomb and young people, teenagers, who have to live life in a postaocaplytic landscape.

Is that how young people see their lives? I look at Ghin and Oisin and I see the deepest betrayal by the educational school system. 

The betrayal of everything really.

Starting with the government. Run by cretins - politicians, enabled by hangers on, civil servants - for the purpose of big business. They are all in it together. There is no Illuminati. You don't need one. It is all out in the open. The horrendous nature of a pitiless system which has reduced people to stats.

An education system which starts children early in the feeling inadequate stakes. If they really cared about children would you design an education system which looked like that? No, of course you would not. What do they care about when they design a place like that for children? Hard to know. Hard to know. At first I thought it was brainwashing. Maybe it is. Maybe it is brainwashing. When people tell me do you think the education system has worked, I say take a look at the entirety of the planet. Is it worse or better off than it was 50 years ago? I'd say on balance, worse. Systems are tottering. So i'd say, no, no it hasn't worked. Mental health - worse. Education acheivement - illusory and pointless. Look at the hucksters and fraudsters. All Ivy League educated. The Ivy League - Oxbridge education is a tag which gives people a free pass. I have always known it. 

Disgraceful. There are a few good people, but by and large having an elite education makes you more of a psychopath, not less. Even to your own family. Imagine living at that level of madness.

Just incomprehensible. Having all that and then discovering that despite having all that it is all pointless and empty.

So nothing they have made works.

Which is why I have tried my best to create a new world. It has been spotty and scratchy, but it is what it is.

But they don't want a new world. This one as decrepit and riddled with corruption as it is suits them just fine. Right it is time for me to head to school with the gingerbread houses. I don't know where I am going to put them. They can't be in the car... because it is too wet. I may have to put them in the cloth area of the classroom and cover it over.

I watch these reels on the FTX collapse and I just find myself laughing at how stupid people were. And how assholes like this exploit the greed and the desperation. It IS a tale as old as time. People dying to get rich quick - it is even written into our fairytales - Beauty and the Beast. Our stories of saints - St Nicholas and the poor merchant who lost his fortune.

Both origins are lost to time, but they are there. People who risk it all and they suffer as a result.