12.3.25 - Zero problems and enjoy your life

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I was so tired yesterday when I got home. 

I just sat on the sofa and then went to bed at 6 pm. Well, maybe not 6 pm, but 6.30 pm after I did Duolingo. 

The world is mad now. Completely mad. 

Everything is mad.

Europe wants to go to war with Russia. Mad.

The Palestinians have lost over 200,000 people to the Zionists. Mad.

Systems are collapsing. Mad.

The only recourse when there is no much news around to drive you mad is to walk away.

I fins solace in connecting with Aengus Og. My third day. I am doing this for a year.

And a day.

The tendrils are faint and fragile, but they are there.

Sometimes, you can't win them all.

That's just it. You can't win them all.

And that's ok. I'm just bored now with other people's problems. I have zero problems of my own. Literally. That's the incredible thing. On my own I have zero problems. Why am I taking on other people's problems?

I have no physical nor mental health problems - this could change. Well, apart from the chronic exhaustion at the end of the day. I have zero money problems. I live modestly and love my tiny life. I have zero issues with anyone. Like I literally have no beef with anyone. I have zero midlife crisis. I mean the car and other things like that - small beer. Just the usual life problems which everyone else has. But me - no problems. The boys are all independent. I am just glad that this is the lovely quiet life which I lead.

Zero problems.

And I think I should recognise the zeroness of my problems before I solve everyone else's. Their problems are not my problems. These are not my problems. Your life and your mistakes and your inability to recognise the things in front of your face - literally - NOT MY PROBLEM. I can help you, but I literally am not taking that shit on. So you know, I just SHAKE IT OFF when I come home. Not my problem. I am not taking shit on anymore.

My time to try and solve shit is over. My time is to have a great life and to enjoy the zeroness of my problem.

There is only one issue which I will keep track of and that's the mess in Palestine. But apart from that... not my problems.

So, guess what, I'm going to ENJOY MY LIFE. These assholes, they can solve their own problems. I will save energy for the real people in my life and the lovely things which I do. Yes, of course I can be compassionate, about other people, but to take on their shit. Eh, no. Not anymore. 

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