11.3.25 - Strengthening faith

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The drumming session this morning went well. Daily I strengthen my connection with Aengus. This is the first day of independently drumming to connect with him. I now drum and write, then drum and write again until I have had enough. Each time I journey/write/drum more arrives. The thoughts are clearer than they have ever been. They feed me, like the hazels and I receive inspiration, insight and strength. Process, thoughts, ideas, promises and healing washes over.

I have noticed that my memory has already started to improve. Just like my hands were healed the last time, this time round, it is my memory. Already I am able to bring things which I would have otherwise found scatty into focus.

To sit with Aengus each morning is a blessing.

Any images of him which are 'out there' are not the Aengus I know. 

Over the next while my task is to get to know him, connect with him or the being of Aengus, and to luxuriate in time. Time is something which has been given to us as human being. This ability to experience time, to stand one more dimension above it, godlike, and I need to experience that purity instead of running the concept I had been given as a child.

The other part of the experience is to know that each moment I am with him it is healing. The four aspected nature of Aengus - with Aengus in the middle is Hermes, Krishna and Christ - Aengus captures all aspects of this mythic being the way in which he connects with me. I also understood that each culture has their own interpretation of the mythic archetype because it is true for them. Just as my own understanding of Aengus will be unique. You cannot contemplate the totality of the archetype because it will destroy you - as the gods have always said. It can only reveal one aspect of themselves to you. And I will build that one aspect for myself. 

Right now Aengus has no physical form. It is a presence of light. A presence of gentle pure love. It is the exact right dose which I need. Never overpowering nor does it play hard to get. I know people talk about this profound love which they have with Christ or this Yahweh God which I can never bring myself to have any kind of relationship with. But what I am developing with Aengus is channeled through the land.

Over this year, I will work in faith. Cos that's all I have. Faith. In faith with Aengus.

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