#138.21 - Bim an gconai - I do be living

After not writing for a long time, I thought that I would write a bit about how the diet/exercise thing is going. I don't call it that anymore cos it isn't that at all. It is now just my life.

I have definitely dropped again this week, not as dramatically as the previous weeks, but that's because I haven't been running everyday, although it is true that I do spend quite a lot of the day walking around and moving. So much that by the time I'm done I am done. I often fall asleep watching an episode of the X files which I now have to rewatch again.

So many half watched episodes of X files. No wonder Mulder looks so bored. 

Well, this week I ran on Monday and Tuesday. Then nothing till Saturday i.e. today but I did go Forest School on Wednesday and I did do lots of walking around an Thursday. On Friday I went for a site visit but nothing says I am alive like an early morning run.

Especially on a beautiful morning.

The other nice thing about not drinking is that I entirely own whatever state I am in. If I am tired I know it is because was whatever is going on in my life. The post drinking tiredness does not mask anything else. It is not another lead blanket I have to cover myself with. Another thing to figure out.

Honestly, i'm a bit afraid of drinking again. Afraid for two reasons. Firstly it is feeling awful and secondly, it is maybe not stopping the drinking once I have started. Also I feel so IN CHARGE of my life. The last time I felt so in charge of anything was when I came back from Harapan. I really cannot afford to drink anymore. I just can't - also drinking means I have more ££ to do things. Like buy new running shoes. In fact two pairs of them.

Today I went running in Belvoir Park Forest. It is now bunged. People have discovered how nice it is to go walking and what is the first thing they do. Well they do two things. First they ruin it for everyone else just by being there and being clueless. Secondly they ruin it for everyone by behaving like it is some kind of amazing thing they are doing. It is like people who do yoga or discover Buddhism. Yes ok, good. You do that. Wonderful. Now please just go away and do it quietly. We don't have to hear about it all the time. Also I don't understand why people have to make a big song and dance about it. Or measure every step they take. Stop it, just stop it please. You do not have to measure your heartbeat nor your distance. You ran approximately 1.5 miles in 20 minutes. OK. That's all you need to know. This constant measurement is a bit neurotic.

Then there are the people who run with running gear. Running gear to the nines. There I am with my 30 year old Benetton T-shirt and my running leggings which are 20 years old and my running bra which is 25 years old. Why do you need all that gear? The fabric and the extra lite sweat resistant whatever. We don't sweat in Ireland. We really don't. In Singapore within five minutes i am drenched. In Ireland after time on the slopes I am lightly sprinkled if I'm lucky. People don't sweat here. Why do you need special sweat absorbing fabric? It's mental. Also you run casually. You don't need Olympic grade running gear. It is so puzzling.

I have decided that running rhythm during term time - which lets face it isn't long to go is going to be SSMTW rest on TF. Thursday and Friday I am DONE anyways. 

But when it goes back to the holidays it will be everyday with one day rest and recovery.

I am very happy with my flexibility. I am not planning to work in a circus so anything more than touching my toes is not necessary. If I get to 70 sit ups by the end of June I'll be very happy. I don't plan to go more than that. I'm already at 50. And i'm happy with the distance I'm running which is about 40 minutes per day with lots of hills thrown in. I find that if I recover enough the pain in my body disappears. Apart from that to have the supplements every morning with the seaweed gloop, and to just be positive. About everything. Everything.

What isn't there a reason to be positive about? What?

Yes Gaza - but even there. The pressure the world put Israel under this past week - it has completely put paid to their ridiculous claims of defending their right to treat the Palestinians this way.

I need to start cleaning the house NOW or I wil never start cleaning it. I guess I can start with the laundry and then the fridge. Yay. Later scrub bashing with Sarah Price.