Better naked

Today i looked at my very greying hair in the mirror by a table lamp and i thought, hey it looks like nacre - slightly pearly. I am fully aware that if i hennaed my hair again, it would take ten years off me. You look like an old woman, Ghin told me. I think what he means is i look older. And i am VERY grey for my age. Many women my age have very little grey hair - i on the other hand have my whole front bit very white. That's ok though, i think. I mean, it is like stretch marks and scars and wrinkles - they are evidence that i have lived.

I have been reading the Gita. It is so wonderful. There is a quality of stripping away at the ineffable. It is as if the universe has taken off all its finery and revealed itself in its nakedness to you and it looks even better naked. In fact this does happen literally in one chapter (?) - Arjuna asks Krishna to reveal himself in his completely majesty and he does this and Arjuna can barely withstand it as he realises that Krishna is everything and how can we bear to witness everything? It is something else.

There in The Gita is everything which you need to live, to understand life. It is the road map to leading a life which honours your truth, which honours your path. It does not strangle you either - it says, this is what life is - you must live your truth as best you can, but you also need to bear all these other things in mind. It talks about man in the cosmos - and it has a completely different quality than the Bible. Perhaps the closest we could come are Enoch's conversations with God. But then also there is no judgement. Krishna does not have anger management issues. I am not quite sure what Krishna is - is he an Archangel? Is he an Archai? He can't be an Archai because he as such a close interest in man's affairs - Is he a folk spirit or a time lord? Possibly someone like Odin.

I have noticed that there are two sets of gods in myths - the ones that are interested in the stuff we get up to and the ones that couldn't care less. I now know then as the Aesir and the Vanir. In Irish mythology we also get this division - there are two lots of Da Danaans - the younger ones which get involved in our affairs, like Lugh and Brigit and then there are ones who don't really care what happens to us, like Mananan Mac Lir. The older ones are the Lords of Form, or Archai, as Steiner calls them - the younger ones are the Archangels, the Lords of Time. They are also the folk spirits.

Then we have our angels.

I love the form of the Gita as well - it is part play, part dialogue, all poetry. It is written so cleverly that each dialogue takes on a different form. I love the way it moves, like light over water, fluid and brilliant.

Today i was doing gardening in school. It was really magical having three classes digging and clearing out the soil. The soil is still very clayey and it's condition is OK. It could do with more organic matter now i can see. Well, i will know for next year. We are starting to plan what we will plant out and the next gardening lesson will be propagation. It is all very fun.

I spoke to one of the girls today who was planning the garden and she was talking about when the trees were larger. I said, that is a good idea, because you know when we garden we work with the fourth dimension. She looked confused. Fourth dimension? I said, yes. What is that she said. Well, the fourth dimension, i said, is time. Oh, That's pretty cool, she said. I said, yes, i know!

Right, time for bed. Very very very tired. Early morning to get ready for school and to have a shower as well.