27.9.25 - Netflix and chill

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The aminata muscaria in our school front lawn.

Yesterday was a total washout. I even felt disgusted with myself. I did. I felt like I had achieved nothing in my life and I was literally doom scrolling on my phone.

Each idiotic video and each idiotic opinion is not meant to increase the flow of goodwill through this planet. In fact, it does the opposite. So I went to bed last night feeling like crap. I had watched Andor, Wednesday and Wayward. Wayward I had binge watched. It has been a nightmare. The way adolescence is treated today is horrific.

I really don't know what to make of it. 

People are hucksters, charlatans. They claim to know the answer, but they do not have the answer. No one has the answer. Or any answers. The only thing I do know is that it is not found on the smart phone. Or online. It is only found through human connection.

The golden light of autumn. It was an awful day yesterday for sure. It was awful. Rain and more rain. I was also really tired. And I felt like everything I had done in my life I had done wrong. That's what happens - it just happens. 

That's life.

But today, I opened the Fungi book for children and began my planning and i felt better instantly.

Instantly. 

It has been a long long time coming. Right I should just go to class and get all that sorted. It will take me awhile. I don't know if I will do the archetypal plant now because fungi and lichen are not archetypal plants. They are barely planets really.

But yes, the place needs to be sorted. 

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