30.12.23 - Angels in the Atmosphere

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Very soon this will be relocated to the office - 
possibly by today, certainly by Sunday


Yesterday Oisin and I went to the club and just did swimming and chatting. 

Before I get to that though.... here are some lessons from yesterday.

I did say this to Oisin at the club... but the two things from yesterday which were of significance were:

1. I used to say I didn't have hangovers anymore, but it turns out that I may have been having one very long hangover. It turns out that the drinking, such as it was, had made me very tired, exhausted and the brain fog has been largely due to that. BECAUSE, yesterday was ONLY my fifth day off the sauce and I was unstoppable. I mean ADHD unstoppable. 

I did the blog,

I wrote my letter to Bart, 

I took out and figured out the moonscope, although by the time I had done that, the moon had disappeared (it had been attached wrongly in the first place and I rectified it),

I excavated the drawings for the zodiac and then designed the Leo drawing, 

I tidied up my bedroom,

I went to the Christian Community and listened to this talk Ben gave on angelic beings,

I posted all the letters and parcels, save the one to Canada,

I came back and watched one episode of Peakey Blinders then sorted out the study and then tidied the upstairs toilet,

I went to the club with Oisin,

Then I came back and at 8,30 fell asleep and got up at 1.30 am.

Yes - I did do all of that.

It was mental.

So that is my brain out of the alcohol. out from under the influence. 

The other thing I said to Oisin yesterday was said here already - which was I am no longer going to say anything good nor bad about Peter. And I was about to say something yesterday when I stopped. I stopped myself. And I said to Oisin, this is what I have decided and he said, that is a good thing. And I said, yeah, it is. To be FREE. It IS a fantastic thing.

I also don't think about what happens next at all. I just think - that's me now. That's me. For this day. 

Also the thing about cleaning is that you discover how you don't need to buy anything ever again. Like I have 5 fountain pens. I think somewhere I may also have secreted a 6th fountain pen somewhere. I have a stack of journals which come up to my shoulder. If I live to a 100 I will never get through them.

I have a stack of post it notes I can use for my planning.

It was so excellent to sort out the study and see all the things I have. I have decided the study will be the place I do all my writing, school planning, admin, everything to do with computers, etc and the backroom will be where I do all the creative things like piano, crafting, art, gardening. It just feels so wonderful really to finally inhabit the house. I designed the shelves for the study. It has been so satisfying.

But also travelling down memory lane was just a delight. As usual. When I do this I see my journey and what an incredible one it has been. I am always, always astounded by the adventure I have had.

This holiday has been perfect. I decided to stay here and sort the house out and thought that's me, but there has always been something. Something to be doing. So, one day at a time. One day at a time. It has been so filled with blessings. I have not missed a single one. 

Right, I am off to the meditation for this Holy Night. 


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