26.10.23 - Showing up

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I am going to show up everyday now for this. At 4 am. Because I am ready to. 

Things I no longer regret are wasting time. It is what it is. I never wasted time. I needed the time. I did.

The Goddess New Moon Journey group is going really well. I'm so delighted with it. I was saying to Oisin that it is now booked out. I said it's local and it's cheap. But we didn't want to make any money from it. The three of us do it for the love of it. That's what we do it for.

I'm listening to an interview about the Process 1 v Process 2 production of the Covid vaccine. I can't quite believe that this has now occurred. Oh and the latest shit we now have are people who think they know better are now giving themselves a free pass. GUESS WHAT there is no such thing as free will. We are the product of our society. Yes to the second part, but no to the first part. Just because you could not choose better, to be courageous, to take the shot, to stand up for what you believe in or believe to be true, that is your fucking problem, not mine. But you are NOT to say that there is no such thing as Free Will. I used to think that as well, Freedom was an Illusion. I did believe that. But I no longer do that because I am a Steiner teacher. Because I believe that children come from the future to do what they are meant to do. 

But more than that, more than being a Steiner teacher, MORE THAN THAT, people need to be made accountable for their behaviour. You do not get to excuse assholes for behaving like assholes. That is the part which I fundamentally reject. The justification. The reverse engineering. The free pass. I really resent that.

I am going to start taking an interest in myself again. I've just let things slide so much. Just being on autopilot. No more autopilot. 



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