Exhausted

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I am exhausted. Completely and utterly. 

I ended up sleeping on the sofa again. I, in fact, now live in the living room. The rest of the house is just there. I don't really do anything else. It is too cold to sleep in my bedroom. I need to bleed the radiators this weekend.

What else is there?

Today I just feel like - what AM I doing for school today? I know what I'm doing but my brain feels like it is not working.

Apparently ancient apocalypse is getting lots of views. People are very excited about the possibility of Atlantis. Atlantis. what were you like?

I guess I should leave now... 

My brain is really now working. The brain fog from last week is still here.

So a few things have started to emerge.

Tech is being used to control us.

Artificial intelligence looks like it is not just more intelligent than most people, it also looks like it has inherited most of humanity's violence and anger.

This shows that anger, contrary to popular opinion is rational. To me anger is a response to pain and hate. I think that psychopathy is rational. Sociopathy is rational. It is reasoning without empathy.

So I guess AI is sociopathic and psychopathic.

We are now being controlled using cashless payment systems. It is ok because in the end people will start trading with local currency. They are trying to dominate land and farms. Again, I think that people will rise up. OK, they COULD try and kill everyone, but then who will be left to do their work? Build their robots? And do people who control these things really want to live in a world like that? Maybe they do. I don't know.

Imagine never having warmth and love in your life. It explains why AI is now socio and psychopathic.

I am someone who has learnt to live with not a lot. In fact the less I have, the better. I am not big on spending money on crap. I have even stopped accumulating things. So in fact, I don't really care about the consumerist shite which happens around me. People are moaning about eggs. 

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