18.5.26 - 135 - Loss
Papaya tree with its fruit...
Meanwhile the world is on fire. Between tectonic movements, illegal wars, genocide, the fall of the West... at least Oisin is here. Last week as an utter wipe out. I just didn't do anything. Apart from run and swim. That was good. That at least is good. And look after Ma, of course.
All of the adrenaline has deserted me and I am now utterly exhausted. Everything seems pointless as well. Like, why bother? Why bother?
But here I am, bothering. I am hoping to get up at 5 everyday to blog and then run at 6.30 am.
Small things. Yesterday, I ran at 8 am. It was last because I was up talking to Ghin. We went to the club for lunch. Then we pumped air for the tyres. Then I watched this film about an octopus and Sally Field which was excellent, just the magic I needed in my life right now, and then we went for a swim. I swam 10 laps, freestyle all the way, for the first time. Dinner was air fried spare ribs and I sat with Ma and chatted for a bit before watching Quantumania, which was proof for the first time, that Marvel couldn't just serve up any ol slop. It was just terrible. I think people will soon return to watching plays again if films continue like this. Not everything can be done by AI. Especially storytelling. You can spot an AI a mile off still.
The latest episode in the fall of later stage capitalism were the queues of people trying to buy this Swatch watch. It was so stupid and sad. I wonder what suddenly takes hold in the minds of the people who believe so fervently that they must line up, overnight, for a truly ugly watch. It's the Labubu and the other stupid shit which grips people with mania every now and then. Say, once ever two or three years. Or annually, during Black Friday. When people can believe that they can must get nothing for something.
But, yes. the last time was 4 days ago. Which has felt like a long time.
Oh a nice thing - Netflix has returned to our lives. Oisin and I agreed that we loved Netflix. The first films we watched in it were the 28 days later sequels. Not having seen the first one, I thought it would be terrible. But if Ralph Fiennes is involved you know it's excellent. Right at the end, Cillian Murphy shows up and reminds everyone that while it may be a zombie film, it is about the hysteria which can take hold and people end up following a total idiot. It is about the cult of personality, not just ideology. In this latest iteration of mass hysteria, personality, once again, takes centre stage. So there was mention of the Weimar Republic and the war. And how we must help everyone. And one person's stand against the hordes is the only thing we can be sure of.
Just did a side quest on the 28 film series.
My toes which suffered greatly three weeks ago are healing well, but very itchy and I have to resist the urge to scratch them. Singapore now seems less exotic and more baffling. I was driving to Kallang the other day and thought that the driving experience in Singapore now is so degraded that public transport is almost certainly a must preferred option. Except, that of course, during rush hour it is just bunged. I don't know how the Singaporean government is able to make any decisions at all. Given all the trillions of moving parts which they have engendered here. Will cities always be places of utter confusion and chaos? I wouldn't even know where to begin.
I need to start booking my flight back to Ireland. It will be after midsummer. So much flying at a time when flying is not a good idea.
Anyway, that's us up to date now. I need to get the story about the Myna down into the book. I have already decided that the myna is a first person narrative. It is the only first person narrative. The myna is a Malay prince who has been changed into a bird and is condemned to be one for 500 years. Yes, so I think he will have annoyed Puteri Gunung Ledang and she will have changed him into a myna - condemned to be one for a thousand years. During this time, he will watch helplessly as the kingdom falls and colonisation takes place. Eventually he is captured and ends up in this pet shop in this HDB estate where he is released by Miriam. I think that's good. Well, it took awhile, but here we are. Out of chaos, must come order.
Maybe I am missing something about AI, but the more I hear about it the less I am worried. Maybe cos Oisin is so comfortable with it. Anyway. I don't know what the weather is like today. The past few days it has been so nice. Since the last full moon. Weather may change then.
It's good to write again. So good.
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