Day 1

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The holidays have ALMOST begun. There was the farewell in school this year - not just to my current class but also the class which once knew me. Class 11. I think I may be the first teacher who is still teaching in the school after all this time. Still as a class teacher. I stayed the course. I taught all the way through. All 7 classes. It has been a crazy time. 

But I have learnt so much in that time. I think that this year I will have to throw away things - or start to throw away things. I have a headache. It is the prosecco I drank last night. 

But what HAVE I learnt about myself? I have learnt, not so much about myself, but that with age, or age is a great thing. I love, have loved getting older. I have loved turning 50. I have loved no longer having my period. And now that I am managing my weight, I am feeling healthy. I am feeling good. 

Rather hilariously, I heard from Heidi the news that there is going to be another child. I laughed out loud when I heard it. It was so typical. The stubbornness. The pigheadedness. The refusal to deal with reality. The sobbing the eyes out about how expensive everything was and now this... it was soooo funny. Once again, Planet Chaos. Once again. It reminded me how great it was I now no longer had the madness around me and that I was allowed to experience the peace, tranquility and calm which I returned to everyday.

It is the perfect balance - the busyness of school and forest school - and then the chill of home. Honestly I have NO IDEA what I would say to anyone if they were still here. It is just astounding. 

BUT I am watching too much Disney +, but I think to myself, I deserve it. After all those years of single motherhood - yes, I deserve it. 

I got so many lovely presents from the children and parents. So many lovely cards and emails telling me how much they appreciated me. This class - I don't know if I will take another class. If I do, I will be 65 when I retire... I don't know if I will still be doing forest school... Who knows what tomorrow brings?

Guess I should go and get now... but this laptop, I think it is almost 10 years old now... I think I got it in 2013... maybe 2014. Amazing isn't it? how time passes... 

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