I know it sucked for the circus school that they did not have their performance, but walking into a transformed space in the Art College with children juggling unicycling and table sliding was completely magical especially since we did not expect it....
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| Deciding if they will go on |
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| There's Oisin juggling |
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| Ghin waits for the decision tooo |
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| Nope, too rainy and it will all take place indoors |
Ghin now goes for Kendo and it takes place in a beautiful church hall in East Belfast. East Belfast has some of the most amazing red brick work ever...and it also has this...
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| One day these murals will be a distant memory.... fewer and fewer of them around |
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| I could have spent the entire day taking photos of these houses and their detailing |
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| Then Oisin and i went to Il Pirata and had lunch together on our own! |
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| Then i said i need to take a photo of you because you are so beautiful |
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| So he gave me this.... |
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| And this....my son Oisin |
It has rained all night, by the looks of it. Last night we attended Oisin's confirmation talk and it had the title "In the middle is the one you do not know", which is pretty Zen really. It went straight to the heart of what it was to be a human being and there were many things which were said, but what i took most from it was, to be human is to give meaning to something. That we are free agents, we choose, we are independent and free and we can choose always - and try our best to find meaning in meaninglessness. She also quoted Victor Frankel saying that the death camps were an Experiment of the Cross... and she also talked about the threshold experience of the child becoming an adult - how they must choose and walk away from their parents. It was all very hard for me to hear because to let my baby go and to see him walk away... it is doubtless one of the most difficult things for a parent to do. No wonder in Asia we have our extended families... but i will always be there for Oisin. Do i have any regrets? Yes, of course. I regret i did not spend more time with him. All the time i could really because now, now.... all that possibility is passed and i can see it all coming to an end. So i suppose i should just enjoy what i have left and be grateful for whatever i have had with him. My darling Oisin, i love you so much.
My lettuce seedlings are fucked. I will just need to replant new ones and buy in plants. the lettuces i bought and raised though and doing really well and the pea seedlings are ready for planting out. I know what i did wrong. The seeds were in these completely useless seed tray which i shall be throwing away because it is too shallow.
It has been such a busy weekend in May. I hope that the weather clears up for the Festival of Fools and for our BBQ later this afternoon. My god, i am already crying when i think of the confirmation service later today. Better just prep the vegs and take my mind off things.
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