Is that rain?

Elderflower outside the conservatory window

Cant quite believe the amounts of rain we've been getting the past 20 hours. After a relatively beautiful dry week the clouds just opened and burst all over us. I've been organising the notes while the boys watch TV and play Naruto. They haven't done that all week and i guess after running about they just needed their fix. For Oisin this has been a very quite birthday. I can't believe he is 11. As he were reading in bed last night i said to him, Oisin i can't quite believe you are 11. It seems just like yesterday i gave birth to you.

So, things are about to change even more now. What a year right. That Uranus knows how to throw a party tell you. I was saying to a friend, you know how i felt six months ago? Like excited and mostly terrified, that's exactly how i feel now. Like the universe saying, well is this not what you wanted? Well here you can have it. Let me know how it goes.

Is there anything more terrifying than getting what you want? Not really. If we don't get what we want we can whinge about it. However if we do get what we do want we then have to step up to the plate. My bluff has been called and then i'm asked to do the best that i can. Hm... yes that is what i call frightening.

Well i think it's time to get the kids to bed. Tomorrow will be shopping for the week and then after that, probably more note organising. I think i may even make a start on the undone homework.

Today as i organised my stuff i felt an amazing sense of being blessed. It was very strange, as if there was music, but there was no music you know.

Well time to go. Half way through the year. In a week's time, midsummer. How time does fly.