Dreams...

Sometimes i surf the net looking for the meaning to life. Honestly. I do this. I don't type in meaning to life, but look up things like Shamanism. Or Mystic Poetry. Or Feminist Expression. Or Goddess Spirituality.

I am looking for answers. 

I have not found them yet.

I have found websites though and talk at length, in great detail, about aliens and their relationship to the person writing on that website.

Or websites which people put their art on.

There are websites of people trying to sell all kinds of things. Once a man put his wife up for sale. I think i recently heard that someone was selling their virginity on e-bay.

I read this book by a man called Peter Kingsley. It is alright. His style of writing is poetic at first and then entirely tedious. There is a photograph of him at the back of the book. It has put me off the book entirely. It's funny isn't it? How a photo can influence what you read?

I am especially interested in the journey to the dark side. In the way that Campbell talked about that journey to the shadow - what the Jungians call the shadow. What i don't understand is why there isn't a description in the entire webspace of how this can be done.

It is a simple enough journey which people have been making for thousands of years - why hasn't it been described yet.

Lately i've been having vivid dreams - they usually happen at 4 - 6 am - and they last for perhaps half an hour. In them it feels far more than just a replaying or working out of the day to day mechanisms. I remember them and they puzzle me through the day. I dream of people that i know and those dreams make me wonder about them.

In one of my dreams i saw how unhappy i was making Oisin. Be kinder to him, my dream told me. You can't make him take so much of responsibility at such a young age. It isn't fair. In another one Peter was there - i so seldom dream of Peter - so it was a good sign i thought he was there in a positive way.

I enjoy these dreams. I enjoy being able to remember them.

It is good i am dreaming - again.